Her Beef 7: Better Days

Chapter Fifteen

August

All I have been doing is thinking about Desire. I been praying that she would heal not only from her wound but from the pain she has endured with Aubrey. How could he just let a woman like her go? I know that if she was my wife that I wouldn't be able to do it. She is the ideal wife and the best extension of a man that God could have ever created.

I been through my fair share of failed relationships. I also fell for another man's wife besides Desire, but Desire has always been the one. The very first time that I met her I knew I was meant to love her. That weekend in Jamaica I thought we would end up together. When she popped back up in Costa Rica I knew she was the one.

I was just sitting at the piano thinking of all the beautiful moments that I shared with her. She made my heart excited whenever she entered a room. I was bout to start creating a song when my doorbell rang.

Who the hell could be here for me? I went to the door and the last person I thought in the world that would come see me was standing there.

Aubrey was standing at my door looking like a wounded puppy but he still was trying his best not to lose his pride.

"It gotta be serious if you here to talk to me." I said stepping aside to let him in.

I didn't feel like fighting or arguing, so I pray that this man came in peace.

"Look I didn't come to start any problems. I just had something that I needed to get off my chest." He said.

Judging by the look on his face it has to be pretty serious. We went and sat in the living room. I let up a blunt I had in my ashtray to prepare myself for whatever it was he was about to say.

"I remember that feeling I got the first time I met Desire. She was just so confident and different from all the women I had ever met. She gave me the hardest time any woman has ever giving me. I had that I'm Drake attitude shit all women want me, but she wasn't going for it. I have never loved any woman the way that I love her. My issue is that I don't know how to show her that love. She has been every bit of a good woman to me and she is an amazing mother to my children. I can now honestly say that she was more in this marriage and relationship than I ever was. I knew once she found out that I had another child outside of our marriage that she wouldn't stay and I knew she didn't want to marry me. She did it to make our family whole and to stand by me. I said all that to say I finally signed the divorce papers. Desire's heart is no longer with me and as much as I hate to admit this you have her heart. Please love her the way that I never could because she deserves that. Treat her like the queen she is. I waited to late to realize that everything I was out here looking for I already had it at home. Treat my children good because my girl's adore you." He said.

This was not what I was expecting him to say. I wasn't ready to hear him admit that he fucked up a good thing.

"I just want to know one thing. Why? Why couldn't you give her what she wanted?" I asked him really wanting to know.

"All I can really say is I was being selfish. I wanted to still do me, but because I love her I couldn't bare to see her with someone else. I didn't want another man to have what I felt was mines. I didn't value what I had with her because I was to caught up in my own hype. Now it's to late and I can honestly say I still don't believe I could fully give her what she wants if she decided not to go." He said standing to leave.

"Look I respect the fact that you came to me like a man. I have made the same mistakes as you. I have hurt really great women. I made a vow to myself if I ever got the opportunity again I wouldn't fuck it up." I said.

I could see the hurt and the defeat in his eyes. I know it took a lot for him to say what he said. Honestly if it was me I don't think I could ever say that to another man about my wife.

I walked him to the door and watched him walk down my driveway. If what he said was true and if I really do have Desire's heart I am going to show her a love so pure and deep she will never want for any other man. She will never have to worry about getting my attention cause it will never not be on her.

I close my door and went back to my piano to compose a beautiful masterpiece just for Desire.