Her Beef 7: Better Days

Chapter Fourteen

Desire

I was finally home and my kids showered me with so much love. I really loved it out in Arizona and was thinking of maybe going back there permanently. Aubrey and I have been avoiding the inevitable, but it's time that we had this conversation.

This kids were all feed, bathed, and down for the count.

"Can we talk?" I asked Aubrey sitting next to him on the couch.

"Look let me say this first. I know we been through more than your average couple. I know that I have fucked up numerous times. Before this situation happened we were in a good space, but I know this shit happening has made you relive a lot of things that weren't good. I signed the papers for you. I love you Des, but if this makes you unhappy no matter how much it hurts me I am willing to let you go." He said with tears falling.

I wasn't expecting him to say any of that let alone sign the divorce papers without a fight.

"Aubrey everytime Sophie brings Adonis here it reminds me that you had a child outside of this marriage. I thought I could handle it, but I really can't. I love you but this is a very unhealthy relationship. I am tired of defending our marriage online. I am tired of people reminding me that Sophie's son is only a few months younger than our son. I can't handle it Aubs." I said.

Surprisingly I didn't shed not one tear.

"You were never ready for marriage, but I wanted my family to be officially whole that I walked down that isle knowing it wasn't the right decision. I knew we shouldn't have got married." I said.

We sat there in silence just looking at each other. I know in my heart that divorce was the right thing to do.

"Desire there will never be any woman that I love besides my mother that I will love as much as I love you. You will forever be my family and not just because we have children together, but because you are the purest form of my heart in human form. My children are my unconditional love in human form. Any man that gets the pleasure of making you their wife will be the luckiest man on earth. I am sorry that I took you for granted." He said getting up and walking away.

I understood that he was hurting. I never thought that we would get divorced, but I wanted to tell him I was pregnant again. I found out when I went to the doctor today. Aubrey was the last person I slept with.

I looked around the living room remembering all the beautiful moments that we shared in this house.

I walked over to the fireplace and looked at our wedding photos. I didn't even have a confident genuine smile on my face. You could see the hurt and doubt in my eyes.

I thought our loved would with stand the test of time, but it was just around to broken before we said I do.

I pulled out my phone wanting to call August but I know right now is not the time.

Maybe me and August will have a successful marriage if he gives me another chance. August was post to be the one all along, and I knew it I just was stuck on stupid loving a man that wasn't ready to love me back the way I deserved to be loved.