Her Beef 7: Better Days

Chapter Thirteen

                          Desire

It's been two weeks since I been released from the hospital. I haven't seen my children or Aubrey. The day I woke up out of my medically induced coma, my brother Shad and my father flew me to Arizona. My dad has a beautiful ranch house out here. He has nurse's and maids waiting on me and taking care of me nonstop. The only one that knows where I am is Shakeya. I speak to her everyday to check in on my babies.

I needed to rest and heal and I have been doing just that. I was hurt and I was angry. The anger came from the fact this bitch shot me and almost took me away from my babies. The hurt is from all the suffering I had to endure.

"How you feeling sis?" Shad asked me.

He sat down next to me and I laid my head on his shoulder. My brother has been everything to me since we were kids. He has always watched out for me and protected me from all hurt harm and danger so he blamed himself when I was shot again. I told him he could have never stopped me from leaving my house that day.

"Health wise I feel better, but emotionally I am completely drained and hurt. I love Aubrey, but it's time for me to walk away. Every time Sophie brings that baby over it makes me relive that pain I felt when I found out he had a baby outside of our marriage. No matter how hard I try I can't get passed it." I told my brother.

"Well I owe August, because if he hadn't rushed you to the hospital you would be gone. Key told me he handed Aubrey his ass too. Said he beat Aubrey ass bout you, so the boy alright wit me. Seriously though August loves you so much sis and I'm not trying to tell you what to do, but that man has always been there no matter what." Shad said.

We just sat there in silence for a bit. I was thinking about every moment I have spent with August and I can honestly say those have been the best times of my life.

My kids adored him and so did I. I love August I just couldn't act on that love because I wanted so desperately for my marriage to work.

"I think you should really go with what your heart really wants. I know you won't be disappointed with that decision." My brother said leaving the room.

Aubrey and I have tried and tried only to suffer from more hurt and pain. I love Aubrey and he will always be family because he is the father of my children. He gave me four beautiful children even though Aaliyah didn't make it. Our relationship has definitely ran its course and now it's time for us to move on and go our separate was.

I know Aubrey won't just up and sign those divorce papers but I needed him to know I was officially done.

If August would take me back I wanted us to try again only this time I would give him my heart one hundred percent.

I picked up my phone and dialed Aubrey's number. It was time for me to get back into the world.

"Hello Des." He said picking up the first ring.

"Yes Aubrey it's me and before you lose it I am ok. I just needed to get myself mentally and physically good before I came home." I said.

"The kids miss you and I miss you. We have alot to talk about." He said.

I took a deep breath because he was absolutely right.

"We do. I will be home next week. I have somethings I want to say but I rather do that face to face. Kiss my babies for me and tell them there mommy loves them." I said.

We shared a little more small talk than we hung up. It's time for me to close the Aubrey Graham chapter of my life.