YOU WANT TO BE WHAT?

Chapter 3

It's been 2 hours since the incident with Lou & I can't stop replaying it in my head. Why did he do what he did, he's with Liz. I've known him for a couple hours, this cant be happening.

*1 new text*
Liz: [Hey, did Lou let you know where he was going?]
Why is she asking me this?
Y/N: [I left the room a couple hours ago because he took a nap. Not sure where he might've left to, why dont you call him?] I replied.

He must have left right after I did or something. I had been sitting in Starbucks down the street ever since what happened.

Liz: [I tried calling twice, if you see him while you're out please let me know.]
Hm, his phone either died or he just doesn't want to talk to Liz. Something has to be wrong but I really hope it's not because of me.
Not even after thinking that I see a group of people walk in & I see Lou with them. Great. I stand up & throw my trash away. As I'm walking out to leave someone calls me.

'Hey' a voice too familiar says. It was Lou.
I turn around before leaving & he walks towards me. Oh no, why am I nervous?

'What's up' I say trying to show him I'm not nervous at all.
'I'm sorry about earlier, I just thought you felt the same way' he says in a low voice trying to not let anyone else hear. I get goosebumps at the sound of his low voice. He sounded sweet & just the quiet deep voice made me feel something.
'No worries.' is all that comes out. I am making it too obvious aren't I.
'Let's meetup sometime' Lou says looking down at me with the softest smile.
'Call your girlfriend back first' I say & leave the coffee shop.

I cant do this to Liz. It's my first few days here I cant mess up & let a guy get in the way. I just want to be friends, nothing more.

So I thought.

I walk back to the dorms & get back to my room. I get inside & lay down immediately taking a big breath.

Liz: 'So did you see my boyfriend by any chance?' she asks startling me. I get up & see her sitting at her desk.

I thought I was alone.

Y/N: 'He was at Starbucks down the street, he was with some friends' i say laying back down on my bed.
Seconds after I said that I hear her phone vibrate. I hope he texted her.
Liz: 'oh my god, he finally replied' she says happily.

Thank god he texted her, I was getting nervous.

Liz: 'He wants to meet up so I'll see you later y/n' she says getting up & grabbing her purse. She grabs her jacket as well & leaves.

Now, I'm alone.
I play soft music & think about what happened just a few hours ago right here in this room.

*Flashback*

Lou: "Don't leave."
..........What did he say?
As I'm laying on top of him I look into his eyes & see how warm they are. He had such a soft gaze & I couldn't look away.
Not long looking into his eyes Lou moves his head up & slightly brushes his lips on mine. I was frozen & felt like I couldn't move. I for some reason wanted more.

Lou: "Can I kiss you?" He asks softly but deeply. I don't react but yet he reaches his head up more & kisses me. I can't do this, it feels wrong. I can't do this to Liz. I barely know him. I can't let him do this. He doesn't even know me either. Why is this happening right now.

I get up quickly & without saying a word I grab my jacket & leave.

Lou: "Wait, don't leave please" I hear him say as I'm leaving the room. I don't stop, I had to leave.

Why did he kiss me.

*End Flashback*

Why did I let him kiss me...I have only known him for a short amount of time why do I already have feelings for him. He's also dating my roommate, ugh. I now have to hide this from Liz & act like nothing happened when she's with Lou around me. How long can I keep this to myself?