Another chance (The Selection Fanfiction)

Chapter Eight

Chapter eight
Part three

Please read the author note at the end of the chapter. Please don't hate me and be understandable.
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Maxon point of view

I wake up the next morning finding myself somewhere in the forest. I searched my surroundings, so I can return back to the palace and then go to see the grave of my America.

I get up from the ground and started to walk while thinking about what had happened last night. I still can't accept that My beautiful America has gone, that she had left this world forever.

It took me an hour to reach the palace, and when I entered it, I asked a maid that I found in the corridor where is my room so I can take a shower and change.
When I reached my room I took a cold shower to take away all my thoughts. I only wanted the water to take away all my nightmares like it takes all the dirt that is on my body.

What should I do? Please tell me God how can I live without my other half? How can I live without my breath? How can I survive without my passion?

Without noticing, she became the hope to open my eyes everyday, the smile that are put on my face when everything has fallen out of its place, the power to face any difficulty that comes into my face. So how can I now lose my wild star that lights the darkness without being afraid to fall in it.

America, my America, please forgive me for not being there to protect you, for not being strong enough to face my father, for not believing you when you tried to tell me the truth. Sorry America , sorry for being weak like always and I failed you in the end. I left you alone when we faced our first serious problem, I left you standing there, giving my back to you without looking back, not even for once. I didn't think for once that if I will leave you there in the dark alley alone, you will stop shining and give up to darkness.

Old people are wrong when they say December gives you hope and new fresh beginnings and that's by riding away all your problems, but to me, he took the most precious gem that I have and without even letting me say goodbye.

I was standing still letting the cold water wash away my worries, letting my tears get mixed with the water. Then I heard a knock on the door "Maxon!! Are you ok?" Kriss asked.

I sighed then said "Yeah, just give me a minute." I turned off the shower and dried myself.
Then I remembered that I forgot to bring my clothes before entering. Shit... Shit... Shit...

I tied the towel around my waist and opened the door and I got out. I found Kriss sitting on the bed putting her hand on her belly moving it lovingly.  
"Does he disturb and trouble you." I asked. "He's like his father." She commented while looking in my eyes, then she stood up and gave me my clothes.
And if you are thinking does Kriss know about my back, the answer is yes. She knew about it in a lamentable situation and I don't want to remember it.

I started dressing myself the clothes that she gave me when she started to say. "I want to know where you went last night, Maxon?" I can see the worry and sadness in her eyes. "I was in the forest." I answered. "Huhh... And I think you stayed there." She wondered and I nodded.
"I hate when you leave alone without caring that I stayed there in a bad situation like the stupid that I am without knowing what to do or how to leave." She said furious. I sighed and apologized "Sorry, I didn't mean to do it. In the future, I will take you with me. I promise." "Good." She smiled.