Feel It All (Edvy + Royed)

Let The Guilt Go

The group watched the video after Envy went outside with the dogs with the video being hard to watch for them, as they who stood quiet pausing the video for a moment, "That's just awful..." Havoc said, "That's not even all of it..." Roy said quietly, as Riza stood silent feeling terrible for Envy, "Explains why he cut himself..." Winry's voice added as Edward felt sick about Envy's assault reaching for the phone, and taking it away from the raven haired male. "I think that's enough... Ah!" He said accidentally pressing the video to continue about to stop it completely, till seeing Archer grab Envy's hair roughly after releasing inside him, bringing him inches to his face with an ugly grin barely brushing his lips to the drugged male, "Must be hard always being second choice, Envy... After all, you gave up your first time to Edward who doesn't even feel the same way you feel for him... Why not just stay with me, I'll appreciate you more~". That was enough for Edward to stop the video completely, and make a face feeling everyone's on him, "I-I didn't know that... H-He never told me it was his first time... If I would of known that, I wouldn't have been so pushy that day... I didn't even know he l-liked me like that either..." The blond said putting his hand to his face pained, "Why didn't he tell me!..." He asked hurt leaning back on the counter, putting his hand on his face.

 "Why would he tell you..." Riza's voice cut in, "He knew you didn't feel the same way for him, so there was no way he'd tell you anything. Envy was always pushing you to go to Roy, because he knew how you felt for him... He didn't want to tell you it was his first time, because he said he wanted to felt what you felt all those years... But he still felt it wasn't enough..." She said with a tired sympathetic expression in her brown eyes. "What happened to him with Archer... He probably thinks it's punishment enough for everything he's done..." Riza said getting Edward angry, "Ed...It's about time you let Envy go, and just go with your heart... Roy seems like a nice guy.... You're twenty one now, Alphonse would of wanted to see you happy, you know?'' Winry said added in looking to the raven haired male who got flustered as Edward got flustered. "You two seem to like each other a lot... You're good for one another, which means I get to keep Envy... I do like him a lot. I can just spoil him rotten, and give him all the love he deserves.", "You what?..." Edward asked with a dumbfounded expression as Envy say outside smoking a cigarette he had grabbed before Riza took the box of cigarettes from him, crying to himself before sniffling with a tired expression looking to the sunrise, "It's already morning..." He said quietly.

"I'm such a stupid fuck... Listening to my head and not my gut... Constantly thinking and thinking and thinking..." Envy sang to himself tempted to burn himself with the cigarette on his injured arm in the sling, but bite back on his temptation when the dogs nudged him laying on his lap, "I'm tired...'' He thought closing his amethyst eyes for a moment, but open them again with what little energy he had, ''Lusty... Greed... I hope you forgive me someday...". "Envy? Is that you?" A voice close by him said making him lose his color immediately and get nervous at how familiar it sounded, "G-Greed?..." Envy said feeling his voice crack and his hand shake tensed up nervously, "N-No... I'm sorry Greed..." He said making the dogs bark and get everyone's attention, with Edward running to the door opening it to see Greed hugging Envy tightly, confusing everyone at who that was. "Greed, Stop. It hurts!..." Envy screamed surprised at the hug from his usually cold sibling with the group piecing it together it was one of his siblings when seeing his amethyst eyes when he let go of the smaller sibling, looking at him worried apologizing as the dogs barked again, ''Envy? Baby... Is that really  you?...'' A female voice said following after with Envy seeing Lust walk next to Greed, ''L-Lusty?...'' Envy stuttered unable to take everything in passing out suddenly into Greed's arms.

''So you two are Envy's siblings...'' Roy said to the siblings sitting down on the couch, as Envy laid on Lust's lap still out from fainting, ''I'm Lust, his older sister. And this Greed, He's also older than Envy...'' She said introducing the male who looked to his sibling worried as she put her hand gently on the younger sibling's injured arm, ''After nine years, I finally find him only to see him like this... It hurts me...'' Lust said pained at Envy's appearance. ''...How did you two know where to find him?'' Winry asked with Greed pointing to Edward who froze with a nervous smile, ''The kid told me the day I bumped into him... I thought he was crazy till he described my kid brother exactly...'' Greed said looking to Envy making a face, ''To think after all these years, my kid brother is still scared of me, he must still think I hate him...'' He said touching the passed out sibling's bandaged bruised face gently. ''This... This isn't the Envy I know...'' He said noticing Havoc was looking at Lust with a flustered expression, ''H-How do you two know each other?'' Havoc asked with a fluster, ''The kid and I had a one night stand, I was his first. Isn't that right Edward?~'' Greed asked with a grin getting Edward embarrassed, ''You're making Edward sound easy.'' Lust cut in, ''Isn't he?- Ow! Okay sorry!'' Greed said after receiving a hit in the back of the head by the amethyst eyed female.

''Excuse him... But what Greed told me about Envy... Is it true?'' She asked getting serious earning herself silence for a long moment, ''...Yes...'' Riza answered seeing Lust's amethyst eyes look hurt, ''My poor baby... I know he has a terrible attitude, but he's not like that at all... He's really sweet, but he hates himself, He must hate himself more...'' Lust said before getting serious, ''Tell me... You know who did this to them?'' She asked her expression look angered. ''...Well, yes. But... They're blackmailing Envy with a video of them sexually assaulting them...'' Roy said seeing Lust smile at him that scared him, ''Oh? Is that so?'', ''No way, where's the fucker?'' Greed asked angry taking off his shades revealing his amethyst eyes, ''I see where Envy's personality comes from now...'' Edward thought before speaking up, ''M-Maybe we shouldn't do anything?...'', ''I wouldn't do anything so hasty, Edward.'' Lust said still smiling. ''Scary...'' Roy thought looking over to Edward who was talking to Winry nervously, looking over to him mouthing to him to meet him in the kitchen, getting up and going to the empty kitchen with Edward following after but stand away from him, ''I'm no saint, I've been around... So it's understandable if you think terrible of me now-'', ''Your past doesn't define who you are now, Edward.'' Roy said grabbing the blond's hand and pulling him close, feeling Edward tense up and glance down flustered.

''I'm into men though-'', ''I'm bisexual, I've had different partners myself one being gone, It's nothing to be ashamed of.'' Roy said seeing Edward look at him surprised but get nervous, ''My brother is dead, that's why you never saw him... Harlequin was his cat, that's why I was so happy when you found her. She's all I have left of him.'' Edward admitted, ''And I'm allergic to cats...'' Roy admitted too, ''You're joking?...'' Edward asked before seeing Roy sneeze when the tabby cat jumped on the table meowing at him. Before either male could say anything, they got cut off by the ruckus in the living room, "Woah, take it easy, Envy!" They heard going back to the living room, seeing Envy had finally come around but freak out at the sight of Greed, quickly back up away from him against Lust with a nervous expression not surprising the older brother who smiled sadly, "You still think badly of me, huh?..." Greed said reaching a hand out to Envy seeing him tense up, but make a sound in pain immediately. "Yeah you do...", "Envy baby, it's alright... We're not mad at you... Please just relax, you're hurt bad." Lust said worried hugging her smaller sibling against her breasts kissing his forehead with her tinted lips, with Greed seeing Envy's bandaged wrists scrunching his face hurt reaching over to grab his hand despite the minor protest from the younger sibling, ''...I wish I was a bit more understanding with you..." He said running his finger over the bandaged wrist gently.

"I wish you had told me that someone tried to assault you when you were eighteen, maybe I would of listened and you wouldn't have started hurting yourself like this... This person in front of me, isn't the little brother I know... Nine years of looking for you, and to find you like this?... It hurts..." Greed said quietly, "Lust was hurt when you left, and that really made me think about a lot of things..." He said grabbing Envy's face in his hands seeing Envy look at him surprised. "...You look ugly with that hair.'' He commented about his now short hair flicking Envy's forehead earning him a hit from Envy on his arm, making him grin when the younger sibling wanted to fight him but stop feeling tired from the stuff he was given earlier at the hospital finally kick in, laying against the amethyst eyed female falling fast asleep breathing softly, making Lust sigh but carefully put Envy to lay on her lap careful not to hurt him in any way, "He'll be out for a while, won't he?..." Lust asked. "Taking him back home right now is a bad idea, but keeping him here isn't exactly good either..." The older brother said seeing Winry cover the sleeping male carefully, "You...", "Hmm?" Winry said looking over to Greed, "Your brother can stay at my place in the meantime, we can head over there to make something so he can eat when he wakes up." Winry offered with her usual smile, "I'll pass, I have something to do, Win." Edward said making Winry turn to Edward frowning, "Fine, but take someone with you.".