GravityTale || Undertale/Gravity Falls Crossover||

Chapter 17 || Uncontrollable

A/N : This is just a short story about Chara's dark thoughts and how some people react to it. I'll make a proper A/N about that.

__Chara's POV__

I had the nightmare again.

The nightmare where I turn genocidal.

And Frisk isn't there to help me.

Me and Frisk are like symbiosis , except I'm no longer stuck on her , but depend on her. I need her soul to live , to avoid being the cruel corrupted human I once was. Sure it was her fault that I became corrupted, but now I must depend on her.

I walked to the bathroom. It was somewhere in the middle of the night. I turned on the lights and saw in horror the tar come out of my mouth and eyes. Not only that, but my eyes had a faint red glow.

I was absolutely terrified. Sure , this happened often , but for some reason , the sight scared me.

The stuff was dripping on the floor. I ran to the sink and took out my little razor blade. I started to cut.

I self-harm before I fell into the hole , and after Frisk saved me. It was he only way to wash the emotional pain away . After years of doing this , you can say that I am immune to the pain the knife makes.

Each cut.

My fears disappear.

It's a medicine that I must take.

AS I cut more , the tar disappeared more and more, until I took a deep cut on my skin , the tar was erased completely.

I look at the mirror, satisfied. I smile a bit of my accomplishment.

Do I have to do this all the time?

Who knows , maybe Alphys or Gaster will figure something out.

"Chara!"

I got startled and see Mabel , looking at me , shocked. Her hands were covering her mouth. Her eyes were tearing up.

"Chara, why are you doing this!"

I stayed there , silent. 

"Come and I'll explain ."

Mabel sits down beside me and I explain everything. The nightmares, the tar, the cure.

Mabel was a bit relieved that the cuts didn't hurt me, but was still a bit worried.

"I'll patch you up so you don't need to hide the cuts with your jacket and you can wear less hot clothes k?"

I nod peacefully.

She takes the bandages and kneels down.

"Does Flowey and Frisk know about this?"

I shook my head.

"Then I won't tell anybody at all, but if you do it again , I'll have to ok?"

She starts wrapping my right arm.

"Mabel , I only wanted to die so badly. When Frisk saved me , I was relieved , but also a bit frustrated. When you die , you have a long sleep and there's no waking up. the sentiment feels good. When I fell down the hole , I was hoping to escape humanity, but that's a different reason. I just want to have that sleep again."

"I understand. There! all patched up! Please don't do that again, you gave me such a scare! For a second I thought you were committing suicide!"

I nod along. 

But I know deep down , I still wanted to end my life.

For the sins I've done.

The pain I've caused to my family.