Because Of You | Nash Grier Fanfiction

Chapter 13

*Addi's POV*

When I got home I threw my things on the table & went straight to the bathroom & just looked myself up & down. I'm a mess. All my feelings from all the bad things that have been happening are all piled up in my head.

Why am I even here All I'm doing is bothering everyone? My breathing is heavy, I think I'm having an anxiety attack.

I open the medicine cabinet & take in the variety of different pills.. I grab a random one not even caring. I rip the lid open & dump over half of them in my palm. I study them, they're about the size of my pinky nail & are maroon colored. I try to level out my breathing but nothing seems to be working. Before I can give myself a chance to second guess myself I devour them. Every single one.

Once I realize what I just did I start bawling, that kind where your gasping for breath and can't do anything until you're calmed down. The worst kind.

I shakily walk to my room & open the door, I am greeted by a calming breeze coming from my open window. I walk to it and am about to shut it but I feel like it's calling me & instead decide to go out on the roof. I climb out and take in the view of the neighborhood, our house is almost hidden because of the giant oak tree towering above it. I like it, it feels more private.

I sit down against the siding and take a breath, & calm myself down. I sit there for a while until I get to thinking.. This is really high up. If I was to "accidentally" fall I could end my life faster. I try to brush the thought away because it's so gory , but I can't shake it. Before I know it I'm slowly walking to the edge with tears streaming down my cheeks like a waterfall. I look down. I'm at the edge physically & mentally. One step & everything would be better nothing would hurt anymore.

*Nash's POV*

I bet she went home.. I really want to go check on her I mean so much is going on with her right now I don't think she should be alone. I decide to skip my remaining classes since it's not like I've never done it before anyways.

I tell my friends I'm going to check on her & they say they'll cover for me. I go outside & walk to my jeep. I put the keys in the ignition & start it. I cautiously start backing out of my parking space but like we established earlier I'm not the best driver. As I'm doing so I hit the curb which sends my car jolting a few times but overall I did well. To me at least.

I don't listen to the radio, instead I listen to my thoughts. I think about how much Addi's been through just in the very short time she's been here. I wonder how much she's been through her entire life then? She seems like a strong girl.. I stop my thoughts since I'm maneuvering down our street now. I park near the curb in front of my house. I turn off the car & put my keys in my pocket, then hop out.

I'm approaching their driveway.. wait is that Addi? "Addi what are you doing?" I yell petrified as I run under where's she's standing on the roof, about 40 ft high. Her eyes are red & puffy as she stands there with her arms out like a bird while she silently crys. She closes her eyes at that question & moments later she opens them & answers "I'm sick of everything." Before I could say a word she's putting her right foot out. "ADDI NO STOP I LOVE YOU." I scream shakily Tears are now streaming down my face. "I love you too." She whispers as she lets herself go.

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