Back To You (Elsa x Female Reader) *PLATONIC*

Out There

Your P.O.V

The Queen's eyes had been following me everywhere and her voice had been stuck in my head for already a week now. I could still sense the familiarity but there was no way this feeling could be real; it didn't make any sense. My mind was just playing tricks on me. But as the feeling didn't go away, I chose to ignore it. Like I did with everything that could cause me harm in any way. I couldn't risk getting hurt again.

I put down the book I had been reading and walked towards the window. The only sound that could be heard was the one of my footsteps on the wooden floor. I opened the window, looked outside and admired the view of the village that always took my breath away. I have to admit; Arendelle was beautiful at that time of the year. Summer really looked well on the kingdom, but I still preferred when the cold but loving arms of winter hid the fjord into its embrace. It might be because I like cold weather more.

I kept looking outside and then my eyes fell on the mighty castle, which was probably my favorite thing in Arendelle. I had always admired its architecture and had spent numerous nights sketching it and wondering how its rooms, decorations on the walls, floors, ceilings and stairs would look like. I never had the chance to step inside and probably never would.

I had been observing the world in front of my eyes for a while, that I forgot about my own. But of course, this had to be ruined. The laughter of children soon filled the atmosphere. Some were chasing each other, some were playing hide-and-seek. Couples were flirting. Groups of friends were hanging out, having fun. People were talking and smiling while scrolling down the streets. They were all living in a world I wasn't part of; only left behind. All I could see was... happiness. The sight of it only made me growl.

I walked away from where I had been standing but didn't dare to close the window. No matter how much I hated the sound of joy coming straight through the village, I couldn't bare the sound of the heavy silence that filled every corner of my cold house. The only times I closed this window were when I went outside, something that happened very frequently those past days. I couldn't stand the absolute silence; it was so quiet I swear I could hear my blood running through my veins. It drove me insane. However, it had gotten to the point I could say I was used to it.

It had been 13 years since they 'left' me; silence and loneliness had been taking care of me since then. And I must say, I felt like they had been quite overprotective. How could they not after all he  did to me. He was supposed to protect me and take care of me. But all he did was hurt me and leave deep and forever unhealed scars to my young but already broken heart. I was just an eight-year-old kid but he showed no love, no care, no compassion. No mercy...

People who believed to know my story were saying I grew up too fast. They weren't wrong. But what they didn't know was that I grew up too fast because I had no other choice. It was a matter of life and death. Literally. Which, I believe, was the reason I was who I was. I didn't choose my life, it chose me. But... I still had gotten to decide my "future"; no more hurt, no more tears, no more fear. I had put up my guard and locked my heart away, destroying the key. I wouldn't open it to anyone ever again. I let them call me "scary" and "heartless", I let them call me "dangerous", I let them call me "monster"; it was all better than have them calling me "weak", "scared", or "broken". Because I was not and most importantly, could not  be broken.

I hadn't realized I had been staring outside this whole time. I shook my head to make these twirling thoughts go away and looked around; there was this suffocating atmosphere covering everything. I started to feel as though the walls were closing in on me.

I turned back to the open window that allowed me to see a kind of life I had forgot still existed and I felt like going to see it from up close. I smirked; this different world out there was calling me and I couldn't find a better excuse to not sink into the darkness that day. Who knows? Maybe this "call" had a reason to distract me that day.

Elsa's P.O.V

I had just finished signing a huge pile of trade agreements when I heard a gentle knock on the door.

"Your Majesty, are you ready to go?'' I heard Kai politely asking.

"I am," I answered as I stood up from my chair. I walked to the door, opened it and stepped outside of the room. The butler immediately bowed to his Queen. When his eyes met mine again, he gave me a small smile which I gladly returned. He had come to escort me into the village.

As we began walking, I couldn't help but feel a little anxious. It had only been a month since my return and I was still trying to get used not only to my royal duties but also to all the people that would greet me and watch me as I'd walk through the streets of Arendelle. It was all still new to me.

When we were only a few meters away from the large and finally open gates, I realized nervousness wasn't the only thing I was feeling. There was also a touch of excitement and... impatience? I could feel it; something was waiting for me out there.