Dakota Elise Green
September 16
1:15 pm
Every since I came home I've been in the bed not having any type of energy to move whatsoever. Diana was more than just my big sister, that was my best friend, half of my heart and knowing that she's gone forever just don't even seem real. I couldn't even process this
"Dakota" sheana knocked on my door before walking in. I didn't speak, instead I just looked at her
Sheana was dressed for the day but I could easily tell there was no effort in what she wore and I don't blame her. Who felt like doing anything right now
"You ain ate at all yesterday so I know you hungry right now"
I shook my head and looked over at Harper who slept in the bed peacefully beside me. My poor niece
"Just make sure she get something to eat" I spoke lowly while wiping a bead of sweat off of her forehead and sighed
"Kota you gotta eat something" she sat down on the bed beside me and I shrugged
"You going over to the house today?" She referred to my momma's house where Diana's setting up took place. Of course I had no choice but to tell my momma what happened now and she rushed to the hospital as soon as possible but what happened after that is what really surprised me. My momma fussed and blamed me for what happened, saying I was irresponsible because I not only didn't tell her about the car accident but because I wasn't there when she had the seizure. If I wasn't already feeling low enough, she put me even lower and now her words played over and over in my head
"You should've told me Dakota! And now because you wanted to be irresponsible your sister is DEAD!"
I could just hear her sharp tone and mentally see the tears stream from her eyes as she clinged onto my sister's lifeless body in the hospital bed. Her words are something I'll never forget not forgive her for
"No" I told Sheana in a monotone voice.
"Look Dakota, I know she didn't mean what she said. She was just angry at that moment"
"She called me irresponsible and blamed me for my sister's death because I didn't tell her from the start when the accident happened?... I remember I was in 8th grade and Diana was in 10th, Diana broke her leg. My sister laid on the ground screaming in pain and she didn't care. All she told Diana was to put some ice on it so if it wasn't for me pointing out the fact that my sister's leg was twisted the other way, god knows what would've happened"
"Damn" sheana sighed
"You right.. damn. That was fucked up but you know what else, that's what made me wanna become a nurse. I wanted to make sure I could look out for my sister whenever she got hurt again because she always looked out for me. And that's why I stopped working to take care of her after the accident. Diana has done so much for me so even though I may have been tired as hell taking care of her but I didn't mind it because I owed it to her"
Once I finished talking I realized Sheana looking at me funny
"What?"
"It's going on two days and you ain cry yet."
"I can't. One of us gotta be the strong one for Harper and it definitely ain't lashon" I laughed a little, yet I was serious at the same time. Lashon was not in a good headspace right now so that's why I just kept Harper
"Whatchu gone do about her? You gone keep her still?"
"Legally I can't. She's going to Lashon after the funeral. I can't lie though, it's gonna be weird as hell without them two in the house all the time"
