Twisted: Twilight Fan Fiction

Chapter 13

Rosalies Pov

I had this sickening feeling in my stomach, one that would not go away. If I was human, I would be throwing up. My body was trembling as I walked through the woods, and I heard my self whimper in agony. This pain was unlike anything i had felt in my entire existence, human and vampire.

I hadn't felt this horrible when Royce and his friends had attacked me. Nor had I when I felt Carlisle's teeth slicing through my skin or even when the venom reached its peak in my transformation. I felt as if i could not hold myself up any longer. Emmett had been my balance, my everything. He had kept me sane. And now he was messing around with a fifteen year old mutt.

A chill ran over my body and I felt myself slowly swaying from left to right, my chest aching. I felt myself falling, and I heard my body hit the ground, but I could not feel it. I was completely numb except for the pain in my chest. That was all I was left with. Heartbreak.

The weakening pain seemed to slowly destroy me. Suddenly, the cold wind was actually affecting me, my skin was chilling. The ground was cool underneath me and my head started pounding from hitting the ground with great force.

I studied myself carefully, noticing that my skin had slight color to it, instead of it being sheet white. my perfect hair seemed to slowly become more... imperfect.

At first, I felt tears come to eyes in fear, but realizing that I was actually producing tears, I stop, leaping up in excitement. The pain vanished, and I jogged back to the Cullen home and through the doorway.

Esme was in the kitchen, i could hear her talking loudly to Carlisle. She stopped mid sentance, and I heard a whisper, but couldnt make out what was being said. 

Carlisle starer at me, baffled as if he was sensing something. Oh wait. I have a heartbeat again. I wanted to laugh at his expression, at Esme's. But I couldn't. I was too shocked myself.

"R-Rosalie?" He whispered. "How do you... How do you have a heartbeat if you ate still in your vampire form? How do you have a heartbeat at all?"

I opened my mouth to speak, and suddenly I was craving air. I was thirty for it, if I could use that metaphor. The immortality, and the ability feel, think, love and change, besides appearance, maybe? If so I have gotten everything I have wished for.

Except for love. Emmett is too... Love drunk, perhaps, on this mutt and the sexual things she has provoked him to do with her. Damn slut! My thoughts screamed hastily.

My eyes stared into Carlisle's, watching him warily. "I'm not sure. I saw Emmett..  The mutt... Bedroom..." I broke down again. "And... Now... Im... Like... This..." I mutterer between tearfilled sobs.

"Isn't this what you wanted, Rose?" Esme whispered softly. "The ability to be human again, to have kids?" She asked.

"Not like this." I murmured. "Its not worth losing him over." I said.

Carlisle looked at me. "Perhaps, sometimes our wishes, as vampires, shall only be granted with great loss." He said.

"Is this life worth it anymore?" I asked.

Carlisle smiled weakly. "I wish I could say yes without hesitation." He shook his head. "No, it isn't."

His words made me think. Perhaps this wasn't the life I wanted anymore.

I turned around, running out the door, not saying another word to either of them.

~Twilighter1918