I had a crush on a cute brown boy when i was younger, but we were both too shy to express our feelings. Fast forward to when I was in high school but couldn't get me none. Not even a crush. I am not ugly, believe me. I have contested in a couple of beauty pageants and always scored 2nd and 3rd places, occasionally. So no, it wasn't...still isn't my looks- i was just not interested in relationships. I was in an all girls boarding high school and I had a very strong tom boy persona that repelled a lot of guys my age. All my teenage years flew by with me being a 'BFF' and connecting some of my class mates with my ever growing boy 'gang'.
I had a difficult childhood growing up, don't judge me, so I have always been guarded. Some would say I liked to play safe. I never understood the concept of love because I had never seen nor felt it while growing up. I had a very outgoing personality that was soon crushed by circumstances and situations which made me keep to myself a lot. Let's skip the sad talk coz I don't like your pitying face.
I later joined campus with a lot of excitement because finally, i would live on my own and get all the boys i wanted....or so i thought. I got a job immediately after my first semester and had to find a way of juggling school and work, with little to no room of any form of socialization. My self confidence and awareness was very shocking to me because despite the circumstances, partying was not a problem...at all.
I have had my share of quick morning sponge baths with bad breathed hangovers at work, but still managed to keep my cool till i finished campus. THAT however, is a story for another day.
The partying was not for long since i soon realized that the nightlife was not for me- Bad friendships and all...you know the talk, so i won't dive into it. My life went from what i thought was fun to conservative then to boring in a span of six months.
I hope now you can deduce my character and judge me as you deem fit. By now im sure you know what the problem is and its definitely not me.
Let's go meet my first guy and judge him too lol
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