LOVE CRAZE

ME

My name is Redempta, but you can call me Red. I don't like the Red color, so don't come at me with that cheesy line. Fun fact is, I am very single and inactive. My actual love life is not as exciting as it is in my unrealistic world and i want to see if you can help me know why.

I have always thought of myself as a hopeless romantic. So much so, to the extent of analyzing any potential dates before i said yes. Maybe that is too much for some, but it is very crucial to me. I love love but somehow love seems to escape me every time i touch it. My attraction to men is very versatile yet i keep attracting the same type in different bodies and personalities.

Don't get me wrong, I am very guarded- with my own principles and what not. Actually, I have only dated 3 men in all 29 years of my life. My age mates though, have kissed pretty much all frogs and princes with some getting married and others being well kept 'baby mamas'. I find it funny because i am not envious of anyone and societal pressure seems not to work on me. I am so comfortable in my skin but i haven't always been this way. See, when your naivety is snatched from you and taken for granted, you learn your lesson- pretty hard i might add, and you find yourself building a wall, brick by experience.

My love journey has been full of ups and downs (mostly downs) and I have found myself not wanting to interact anymore. I'm tired of the first 'interview dates' to find compatibility with someone and I just find myself not wanting people but craving, actually aching for love. Maybe you're better at this so let's wander off to see where all this started.