I had never been to a date before, and in my head, this was not supposed to be one; but it was. See i was so fixated on the food that I hardly noticed his charming personality. He had confidence and was very open and outspoken. His deep voice was actually 'butterfly in the stomach' worthy and for the first time, i understood why the ladies were all over him. He was aware of the attention he got and didn't shy away to talk about it, another red flag.
Needless to say, i liked his persona and wanted to know more about him. He didn't ask much about me which was great since i didn't have much to share...what i told myself. He would later drop me home and ask if he could take me out on a second date to which i accepted. This is not a soap opera so don't expect anything extra. Every step forward in the relationship was quite predictable... and draining.
Mr. Smooth charming was a drunkard who always made excuses for not meeting up. And even when we did meet up, he was nursing a hangover and i would have to take care of him...mostly at his place. Our relationship was very secretive and quite frankly, i wasn't sure i wanted anyone to know that i was dating the school I.T guy. I let a lot of moments slide but at times i would straight up confront his behavior. It was very tiring and draining that I wonder how i was able to keep up.
I used to complain of him and to him for not being available and his excuse would always be my busy schedule. Every time i made time and communicated early in advance, he would either travel to go see his folks, talk about his sister being around or hanging out with his drinking buddies.
After a year-long of on and off commitments, i decided to call it quits and move on. He wasn't love at first sight, not my first love or even the love of my life. I got tired of wasting my efforts and compromising my desire for love and that's when he realized I was done.
What followed after was half efforts,manipulation and guilt-tripping. The relationship had so many red flags from the beginning but i was so desperate for love that i though i would make him change. Then I learnt my first love lesson.
'You cannot make a man change, the only man that can change is the one that wants change for himself'
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Short StoryMy desire for love keeps attracting me to the wrong men and I think I need help. I need to understand why my love life keeps complicating itself. I want to understand why I'm attracting the toxic kind of love. Dating is really not my thing and being...
