Broken Trust

Chapter 18 - The move

#smutwarning #blowjob

Over the course of the last few weeks, Alec had helped Magnus box down all of his stuff. Magnus had bought a nice loft in Brooklyn and they were taking everything there. Alec had been even more supportive than Magnus could ever wish for, and he knew that it was probably killing Alec inside, but when Magnus tried to talk to him about it, he brushed it off.

Alec was determined to help Magnus get on his feet in his new life. He was proud and happy for Magnus. At least that was what he let everyone see. Inside he was yelling and screaming and crying. He was letting the love of his life get away without even trying to stop him. But he had given up. He had fought tooth and nail for Magnus and now he just didn't have any fight left. And he really did want Magnus to be happy. He had just hoped he could be happy with him, but now Alec knew that he wasn't enough for Magnus. And he never had been. It wasn't the first time Magnus had chosen something else over Alec.

Even though Alec tried to not be sad or angry, the feeling of being betrayed kept sneaking up. Bubbling right under the surface. And he knew it wasn't fair. It was just easier than being in love with someone you couldn't have. Alec was almost looking forward to Magnus moving away. It would be so much easier to fall out of love with him, when he wasn't around.

"That was the last of it."

Magnus' voice tore Alec out of his thoughts. He shook off the dark thoughts and glanced around the room. It was so empty. And sad.

"Wow. I can't believe we have packed everything."

Magnus stepped into the middle of the room, turning around slowly. Taking in everything.

"Me neither, Alexander. Even though I haven't lived here for long, it feels like leaving home."

Alec swallowed down a sob that started to build in his throat by Magnus' words. His own thoughts screaming at him.

Leaving home... this is home, Magnus. I am your home! Why won't you see it!?

Instead of speaking his mind Alec slapped on a bright, beaming smile.

"Don't you worry Bane. Home is where you want it to be."

STUPID BOY! Home is where the heart is! And it is right here!"

Alec silenced his thoughts once more. Mentally gagging the voice inside his head.

"You don't say, Lightwood. Well then, will you help me turn the loft in Brooklyn into my new home?"

Alec could feel the voice in his mind trying to break free. Trying to scream, but the words were muffled. And it was going to stay that way until Alec was safely home again. Without Magnus.

"Of course, Bane. I'm yours for the taking."

Seriously? Why would I say that! Stop flirting!

A quick beam of lust slid over Magnus eyes. So rapidly Alec couldn't be sure he saw it.

"I do like the sound of that, Lightwood."

When Magnus stepped closer to Alec, he cleared his throat and shifted the weight on his feet, before hastily grapping a box.

"We better go load up the truck. We have a long drive ahead of us."

Alec nearly fell down the stairs in his hast to create distance from Magnus. He needed to get himself under control. He opened the back of the truck and placed the box inside. Most of Magnus' furniture had been moved last week. Alec had helped Magnus carry the furniture down to the truck and Jace and Clary had helped setting up the loft when Magnus had arrived with the furniture. Now it was Alec's turn to go to Brooklyn to help. He dreaded the long drive, knowing it would be awkward because he could feel the love and the need for Magnus gnawing inside of him. And Magnus seemed so well-balanced. It was obvious how excited Magnus was about his new life, and Alec felt like he had been pushed out of Magnus' thoughts. But he couldn't blame him. Alec had been the one to encourage Magnus to do this. And it had been Alec himself that had broken of their relationship. This was his own damn fault and now he had to live with it.

"Alexander, are you alright? You seem a bit... out if touch with yourself."

Magnus stood right behind Alec, carrying another box.

"Sure. I'm fine Magnus. Nothing's wrong."

Even Alec himself could hear how fake it sounded but Magnus said nothing. He rose a single brow while looking at Alec. His perfectly chocolate eyes searching deep inside his soul, but he didn't say anything. There wasn't anything else to say anyway. Alec smiled at Magnus and then ran up the stairs to get the next box. Trying to put a lit on everything inside him once more.

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When they finally had arrived in Brooklyn and had emptied the truck, it was dark. Alec and Magnus were resting on the couch, exhausted from the running back and forth.

"Alexander, you are welcome to stay the night. I have a guestroom. I don't like the though of you driving home when you are this tired."

Alec knew the smart thing would be to decline the offer and find a hotel, but for some reason he couldn't bear the thought of leaving Magnus already.

"That would be great, Magnus. Thank you."

Alec stood up and headed towards the spare room. As soon as he reached the door, he felt Magnus arms around his waist.

"You could also stay in my room..."

His voice was barely a whisper, loaded with sexual undertones.

"Magnus... we shouldn't."

Alec's mind went blank when he could feel the tip of Magnus' tongue licking over the skin at the back of his neck. He couldn't remember what he was going to say. Nothing else existed but the sensation of Magnus hot breath ghosting at his neck along with the tingling feeling Magnus tongue caused, traveling over skin.

"One last night Alexander. I want one last night with you. Will you let me have one last night?"

"Yes..."

Alec moaned out the word. Ignoring the knowledge of how much more difficult everything would be in the morning.

Alec turned around, cubeb magnus jaw and traced his tongue over Magnus' bottom lip.

"Mmm... You taste so good..."

He parted his lips just enough for Alec to slip in his tongue. He circled it around. Dancing perfectly with Magnus'. Causing them both to pant heavily.

Alec could feel himself growing rock solid. He needed to be inside Magnus. He needed Magnus inside him. he couldn't choose. He wanted both.

Sucking lightly at Magnus' tongue he slowly opened the buttons of his shirt, revealing the tantalizing skin beneath. He pushed Magnus down on the couch, and climbed in between his legs. Kissing the firm abs and sucking at the skin, leaving beautifully pink marks, Alec began pulling of Magnus pants. Taking his briefs along with. He had never felt this despereate before. And the noises Magnus made, didn't help.

"Fuck Alexander... suck me... I need that hot mouth of yours."

Alec complied quickly. He plunged down on Magnus dick, taking it to the hilt. Burying it deep down his throat. The whimpers and moans the exited Magnus only mad Alec suck harder. While bobbing his head, he sucked vigorously. Almost sucking the cum directly out of Magnus' balls.

"Fuuuuck! YES! Oh my god! You suck dick so good!"

Alec released Magnus' dick, sat back on his heels and tore of his own shirt. Magnus quickly sat up, and begun opening Alec's pants. They hadn't fucked since the breakup and they were both desperate.

As soon as Alec's pants were open, Magnus pulled out Alec's dick and started sucking it.

"yes... God... suck me Magnus... just like that..."

Alec reached back and grabbed the armrest to support himself while Magnus kept attacking his dick.

Somewhere, in the back of Alec's mind, he knew this was the stupidest thing he had ever done.