Inked In Love

Forty Three

Forty Three

It was a god send that they wanted to do another joint training session.

I couldn't sleep at night knowing that my dad has some kind of secret and that he is willing to let me in.

I needed to know more otherwise its going to eat me alive.

I know I shouldn't want to get in touch with him again but I don't ever want to regret this later on. I went over to see my mom whilst Theo offered to watch my team for the morning.

Theo wasn't happy with my decision but this was my decision.

And he knew that.

"you believe this crap" my brother said shoving the email that I printed out back to me.

" I actually do, why would he make this shit up knowing that jay is a lawyer and he could easily be caught lying if it was fake" I said to him.

Mom sat quietly not really saying a word.

"did you have any idea" I asked her a gentle voice. My brother had a habit of making me angry whevnever I spoke to him.

She stared at the email. " no, that's the truth. After we got divorced I never spoke to him again this must have happened after I don't know" I could see that she was really conflicted.

" Have you ever heard of this man, did dad ever say anything "

I could see my brothers eyes glaring daggers into me. Begging me to stop pushing this but I had to.

" Honestly no. when the divorce happened and they found out about the abuse he was admitted to government councelling and he was prescribed medicine but I didn't know if he actually had any condition" she said.

"are you serious mom, he's fucking crazy" my brother shouted out. But once seeing moms face he calmed down quickly.

"I know baby but what if there really is something wrong and we never gave him the chance, I'm not going to my grave knowing that"

Mom never had favourites but with my brother being the first born and him living with her all these years you could tell that they had a much better relationship than us.

" Do you want me to stop mom. If you don't want me to dig anymore I'll stop right now" I asked her holding her hands in mine. Something wasn't right, she was close to shaking in the state she was in.

I know I have a right to know more about my father but I respect her decision after all no matter what excuses he has he really did hurt my mom and as her daughter I have to accept that..

" I , uh. It's upto you honey. I don't want to know but you can do what you want. Even after everything I don't want to take his children away from him, just please don't drag me into this" her voice was almost breaking at the very end.

My brother pulled mom into an embrace.

I turned to Jay who was standing at the end of the room.

" She's right Elle but you have to be careful, we don't know what he's really thinking or if any of this is true"

I was surprised that Jay was letting me do this.

" I know. I'll be careful" I said collecting the papers and shoving them into my bag.

I spent a lot of time at the house but when I was getting ready to leave I found mom standing with a small album in her hands.

"what's that" I walked up to her. She handed me the album. " I brought this with me incase. It's all the pictures of you and your father when you were little"