Forever Mine

Chapter Eight

Sara.

I've been sitting in this spot for over an hour. I don't know if I should go out and talk to Raymond or if I should just stay in here thinking about how I've hurt him over the past few months, I also think about how he dropped everything to come and help Hadin save me. I stand up from my bed and go to walk over to the door instead I just walk around my room thinking of good conversation starters. How's work? Do you have a girlfriend? Do you miss me? God all of these are selfish and stupid. I sit down at my bed putting my head in my hands shaking my head.

Knock. Knock.

I look up from my hands and walk over to my bedroom door as I go to reach for the door knob.

"Sara." Raymond jumps me as I pull my hand back from the door knob. "Can we talk?" he asks me. I take a breath and turn the doorknob. As I slowly open the door I see Raymond standing in front of me. His big blue eyes just looking right through me, his blond hair perfectly shaped and him in a white shirt and jeans.

"Hey." I smile at him.

"Hey." He repeats. "Can I come inside?" He asks me.

"Sure." I quickly answer as I enter inside my bedroom. Raymond follows and shuts the door behind him. "What's up?" I ask him.

"I wanted to make sure you were okay." He tells me.

"I'm fine/" I smile.

"That cut doesn't make you look fine." He points to my head.

"Well I think I deserved it." I laugh.

"What does that mean?" He asks me

"Do you remember 2012's homecoming dance?" I ask him.

"How can I forget I had to leave early to go get my stupid brother and you were attacked." He says.

"Kellan Jenkins." I whisper.

"I remember him. He saved you."

"That was Maddie and Liam's brother." I tell him. "She hates me because I got her brother killed." I tell him.

"Damn. But you didn't do anything Sara. You literally were just walking to your car." He assures me.

"You don't have to convince me Ray, I know what happened. She is just upset that he died, and that I didn't." I state.

"Sara." Raymond starts. "I want to give us another chance." Raymond blurts out.

"You what?" I ask him.

"I want to be with you." Raymond states.

"I don't think that's a good idea." I studder.

"Why?" Raymond asks me.

"I don't want to put you in the position for me to hurt you. Again." I tell him.

"I don't care." Raymond tells me.

"I do. I care about you too much to hurt you again." I tell him.

"Do you still love him?" Raymond asks me.

"What?" I whisper.

"Do you still love Hadin?" Raymond asks me again.

I look at him. I just keep looking at him. I honestly don't know what to say. Am I still in love with Hadin? With how hard this question is making me think I'm going to have to say yes.

"I don't know. Raymond right now isn't a good time. I don't want to hurt you and I don't want to hurt myself." I tell him.

"Okay. I get it." Raymond says. "I'll let you get some sleep." Raymond whispers as he turns away from me. I look down at my hands as I look back over to see if he had left yet. My head is pulled into strong hands as Raymond's cool mouth covers mine. For a few moments it feels like old times. Making my heart fly and my mind go fuzzy. Until he pulls away looking at me both of us out of breath. He doesn't say a word he just leaves me standing there. I can't even wrap my head around what just happened. Once I hear the front door close I take a large breath and walk out into the living room. I close my eyes touching my lips as I sit on the couch.

2011.

I am walking down the road after high school got out at 230. As I walk on the sidewalk walking past Walgreens and Dunkin Donuts I cross the street to start making my way down towards my house. When thunder rumbles right above me and the sky lets go of a tremendous downpour. I start running down the road when a blue 1994 Ford F-150 pulls in front of me and the drivers window unrolls.

"Sara! Get in!" Raymond yells. I run around to the passengers side of the truck and climb inside. Once I am inside I laugh at how wet I am. "I would have given you a ride from the school home you know." Raymond tells me.

"I know I just wanted to walk." I tell him.

"Let's get you home." Raymond tells me as he pulls out of the parking lot. A few moments later we pull into my driveway. Raymond looks at me. "Where's your mom?" He asks.

"She's working a double tonight so it's just me." I smile.

"Oh." Raymond says looking at me. I laugh.

"What? Why are you looking at me like that?" I ask him.

Raymond doesn't say a work he just leans over and kisses me. Raymond holds my face in his hands kissing me softly. He pulls away and looks at me. I look at him when I lean over taking his neck in my hand pulling him to my lips.

We slam into my trailer slamming the door shut behind us. Our lips are attached to each other. Raymond picks me up walking towards the hallway. Raymond pushes me up against the wall. Raymond lets me slide down to the floor, Raymond reaches down to the hem of my shirt pulling it up over my head. I push off Raymond's coat onto the floor. As Raymond takes off his own shirt he picks me up again pushing us into my bedroom. Raymond slams us down onto my bed. Raymond stands up pulling off my jeans and sneakers. Raymond pushes off his own remaining clothing as he connects with my mouth again. Raymond pushes himself into my opening. I moan as he enters all the way.

I open my eyes trying to push away that memory away from my mind. That was the first time with Raymond and the first time I knew I loved him. I walk over to the kitchen pouring myself a cup of wine. I can't think anymore.