Broken Chains

Part 2

Chapter 2

"You need to eat." Darius said plainly striding into my room and in an instant his eyes swept over my untouched tray. I just snarled at him,

"I'm tied to a chair."

"We untied you, you didn't eat you just tried to hurt Dean. "I snarled, "And if I were to untie you now would you eat."

"No" I said honestly "I'd try and get free." Darius sighed

"Dean says you were sick again."

"I'm always fucking sick." I snarled, Darius sighed as he walked around the front of the chair I was now tied in and settled himself down on his heels.

"You need to let him go Jess you believe he's dead and it'll get easier. Eventually what's between you will end, but you have to let him go."

"No." I said firmly.

"Jessica," he said gently "he's gone. He's dead"

"He is not dead "I said Loudly hearing how thick and slow my voice sounded I was recovering from the sedatives but they were still in my system keeping more pliable than I would have been able to be without them.

"He can't come back. He killed Jamie there is no way."

"I bit Ashton I turned him against his will." I said flicking my loose hair back from my face. "Its expulsion for that right so you should just let me go." Darius sighed heavily and rubbed his eyes as though they hurt.

"You know I can't do that Jessica you'll die."

"I DON'T CARE." I shouted thrashing my entire body violently in a vain attempt to loosen my bonds.

"Well I care." Darius snarled grabbing my upper arms so hard his fingers dug in leaving instant bruises. "He threw his life away but I will not let you do the same. He is dead."

"NO HE IS NOT." I screamed "how can I make myself believe that when every time I dream its of him fighting, hurting people or fucking my twin sister?"

"I don't know." Darius said gently brushing his fingers across my cheek, "but you have to find a way or it will destroy you."

"LEAVE ME ALONE." I snarled childishly.

"I wish I could leave you to grieve in peace honey but I can't risk losing you I won't survive that. I've lost half of my pack." He voice began to crack with emotion "Pete's Dead, my daughters mate, my second in command goes rogue. He fucking kills Jamie and Roger." he hung his head rubbing a hand savagely through his head "I don't know what. I mean what I can ever... all I have left...I... I can't lose my daughter too. Don't make me lose my little girl." I slowly lifted my eyes to lock them onto Darius'

"I killed her." I hissed, I saw Darius bite his lip as Tears welled up in his eyes.

"Jessica." he said softly

"How long is this going to last Darius? You can't protect me forever."

"You'll feel better."

"No I won't I did this Darius this is my fault." Darius sighed,

"No Jess he made his choice," I shook my head slowly,

"I killed them. I destroyed Derek and because of that he killed Jamie and because of that I will never." I cut off not able to go on but still feeling a desperate sort of clogging need to confess to someone I needed something I needed to be able to breathe. "I killed our baby." I said plainly, Darius averted his gaze clearly he had no idea what to say but what could he say to that. "that's why I left, Pete was killed and I wanted to stay with him so much and I would have but then I was pregnant and I didn't ...I couldn't make him. I knew it was his baby but ...I couldn't do that. He wouldn't have but I would have hated that child."