Everything I wanted her to know.

Start Of Enmity

As I approached school today, I sensed a form of discomfort between my classmates and me. I noticed them ignoring me and even the teachers started to pay no heed towards me. I felt like I had been boycotted by the entire classroom. I am good in academics, I mean I am the topper of the classroom. But the teachers had been ignoring me for no apparent reasons and they prioritize others answers over my answers although I said the same thing. I reach out to ask some of my classmates about why they have been acting all strange.

 I ask my childhood friend and he answered, "Shut up. No one wants to talk to you. I guess you must be wondering why everyone's been acting weird. Well, let me tell you why. You are the one who thinks you are better than us and even skip the morning classes. And now you want to ruin us and our studies. Well, guess what. We don't need you as a friend." Upon close analysis of the things he told me, I realized that the teacher might have given them a false impression and with the upcoming exams they might have easily thought what he told to be true. But deep inside I knew that everyone wanted to take rank 1 and they need not want me to be interfering them. Although the upcoming exam was not such a big deal, but for the principal it is a crucial time as she gets to publish our marks as a commodity on brochures and lure other students into the school. Nice business strategy, I thought.

In my head, thousands of curses were running around and I wanted to punch the principal hard right in his face then. But I held my emotions and sat quietly throughout the day. Even at lunch I placed myself at a corner away from the rest of the class. The feeling of solitude that struck me then was only just a small emotion, but a realization that people only consider your existence as long as you are of their use struck me hard. I got such a deep feeling of catharsis (emotional release) and my heart started to a weep for what I had faced. I tried to take it all out of my head but I couldn't as it is the harsh reality and I cannot run away from it.

As I reached home, I went straight to my room ignoring the greeting of my father, who had just arrived home. An idea struck to my mind." If they can ignore me for their studies, then I too can ignore them" I thought. Not just my classmates, but my entire school including the teachers. The frustration that seemed to be going through my head was extreme and it took my decisions to a weird region. I planned to skip school and stay at home to prepare for my exams. My father approved it as I just told him that I could study by myself and it was all up to me.

Around a month was left before the finals and I stopped going to school. I ignored all the calls from the school administration and made my intentions clear to beat  all of the during the exams and get admitted to a highly reputed high school whose entrance exams were considered to be the toughest. I went on with my decision and my studies seemed to be going according to the routine that I had designed. I would occasionally take short breaks but I never felt the urge to stop studying as the feeling that was driving me was stronger than ever. I wanted the people to regret their decisions and I knew just how it had to be done. 

Two days before the exams, my father got a call from the school where he was said that I had to come to school for the last day to get my examination permit. I really didn't want to go but conditions forced me to go there. I had a angry expression during the whole day.

 As I entered the school premises, the principal approached me and said to me ,"I want you to teach the person who will be seated behind you during the examination."

I asked him ,"And why do you think I will do that?"

He replied," Because I ordered you to. And if that guy passes the exams, it would be a great achievement for the school as we would get 100% passing rate."

I just walked away without answering him. The guy whom he was talking about approached me and he told me help him. I again look back at what I thought and now I think humans are being of need and you are only taken into a group of accepted by the people because they demand something from you.

I took my exam permit and went back home immediately as I didn't want to stay in that place for another moment. I reached home, did my revisions and went to bed.  I sense a constant feeling of fear over the exams and was up till late at night. Then, I thought that I should finally have some sleep and went to sleep.

(Next Chapter : The examination arc)