Everything I wanted her to know.

The Examination Arc

 I woke up and went to the bathroom to freshen up. I decided to take a bath to clear my head from all the emotions that were running around my head. "The first day of exams, quite a stressful time." I sighed. The constant fear and stress troubled me even when I am having a shower. Then I decided to put in a final revision session before I go to the examination hall. I revised through my notes once more and prepare to head out. As I open the door to go out, I saw my father at a distance coming towards me. He looked really tired after working in a night shift. 

He said with a proud look on his face, " So, its finally the big day, huh. My son, don't worry about exams . They will just come and go. Just don't stress it and do your best. It doesn't matter how your results are. All that matters are the effort that you put into it." I look at him and said," Thanks dad. You are a lifesaver. You really helped me calm down. Not I can give it my all without any stress." After I talked with him, I felt a soothing voice from my mother. Even though she is not here I felt as if I could hear her calm soothing voice telling me to stop being a worrywart. I finally reached the examination hall and reach to my seat. I was at the fifth bench and a classmate was placed right behind me. The bell rang and the examination started. I turned the question paper and started solving the problems. It was Mathematics exams that day so I really didn't have to worry about the time. After 2 hours, I had completed the exams and was checking my workings to see if my answers were right or not.

As I was doing so, the guy behind me kept on poking me continuously. I tried to ignore the guy, but his persistence overpowered me. I turned around and told him," Will you stop doing that? I am trying to give an exam here. Unlike you, some people actually have to write." I turned to my answer sheet expecting that the guy would stop irritating me. But he kept continuing to do so although the proctor scolded him not to. I got way too irritated and stood up, walked to the proctor, handed him my answer sheet and got out of the examination hall. The shocked look on others face was a sight to be seen as everyone was doing their exams, while I left the room after having completed my exams. 

The next day, the guy behind me approached me and he said ,"What the hell is wrong with you? If you ignore me today as well, I swear to god, I will take your answer sheet and tear it in front of the proctor. I will be taken out of the examination hall but I don't care. If I fail, I am taking you down with me. So now, you know what to do, don't you? Asshole."

" Who are you calling an asshole? A pimp like you would't dare to do so. You are the guy who cried when the teacher scolded you for not completing your assignment and the guy who literally begged the teacher so that he would not call your parents. So, lets see the bravery of yours. I am sure you don't have the guts to do it. If you do have the guts, show me that you can do it. Let's see what you do." is what I wanted to say.

But the idea of him doing it just gave me the chills and I ended up not replying to him at all. Then at the examination hall, my fear just took the better out of me and I ended up helping him cheat throughout the examination. I just wished that the exams would end and I will never have to see the face of these rotten bunch again. I make a vow never to return to the school once the exams are over and to totally have no regards for any of my classmates. 

Each day of examination was a suffocating time for me as I had to do whatever I believed to be immoral. So on the last day of the exams, I showed him the wrong answers and at the last 5 minutes, I rub all the answers to the short questions worth 10 marks and correct them by myself. The guy had no idea of what he has copied and was just happy thinking that he had a great exam. 

At the last day of exams, everyone told me to come to school and that we would enjoy the last day of our middle school. But, at that moment  I was not there but,  in my house away from them. "Finally the exams are over. Now there is a month before the high school admission for my dream high school begins its first phase. Well, most don't know about it and end up going for the second phase that takes place once the exam results are posted. There's still three months to that. I guess it is a long vacation for me now." I planned.

I got up and decide to head to the book store to get some study materials for my high school entrance examinations. I take out my pocket money and it was enough to buy two books. I sprint  out of my house and went to the book store. Although it was quite far away, I decided to walk as it was spring and the flowers had just bloomed so well that it tempted me to come and enjoy the natural beauty. I bought two books and went to the high school administration office  to take the application form. Although it is way too early, I could see a long queue for the applications. I guessed it would be tough to stand out from the crowd but I was determined to do it. I won't give up my dream of getting into this reputed high school.

Then I walked back home and decide not to study that day. I had my dinner and went to sleep that I need. I had an extremely peaceful sleep, unlike any that I had had. It was the time I felt what it meant to be carefree and chill as fuck.

(Next Chapter : Holidays begin.)