Everything I wanted her to know.

And Now Everyone Knows.

I woke up and got ready for school. As I was walking through the streets, I saw Natasha near the post office. It appeared as if she was waiting for someone. I decided to go and meet her. I marched bravely to the post office and met with her. I said, "Hi Natasha, I was just walking to school and I saw you standing here. Are you waiting for someone? If not, maybe we can walk to school together?" 

After I asked her that she replied," I was just waiting for you to arrive. How dense can you be? Come on. Let's go. I don't want to be late for school." On our way to school, we saw Claudia and Ryan walking to school. As always they were hitting each other in a fun way. As Claudia saw us, she waved her hands and called us. We walks towards her and she said," Looks like the love birds are together from now on.  When she said that, I didn't feel hesitated to agree with that and well I just smiled at her.

Then she smiled and said, "I was just kidding, but it seems that the love birds are indeed goofing around behind our backs." I didn't reply anything and the topic just remained unanswered.

Nothing so noteworthy took place during the class and everything went as a normal high school day that you would expect. During the lunch, I overheard some guys talking about a date they had. I realized that I too should ask her out during the weekend as that is the most humanly and normal thing to do. But it struck me that I had no idea where to take her. I thought about asking Claudia for advise, but I guessed that she would just make fun of me and shoo me off after the conversation that remained incomplete in the morning. Asking someone I was not to close to would just make me like a creep. So, after careful consideration I decided to ask Ryan for help. Although I didn't think that he would actually be able help me, just I guess it's worth the shot.

So, after the four of us have lunch, I asked Ryan to take a stroll with me. While we walked through the school hallway, I initiated a conversation, "What do you think about dating ?" I asked in a curious tone trying not give him any hints about my thought. 

He replied in a stoic tone ," It's just a waste of your fucking time. Why do you even have to go on a date anyway ? All that you get is stress and a constant strain over your back. You need to make sure that everything is perfect and should always forbid from things that might give any idea about desperateness. You can't talk freely to her as it would ruin your impression in front of the other person. If I were to describe a date, then it would certainly be a masque where you are trying to hide your real face and your personality to reveal your best only by your moves."

After hearing what he said, the small drop of testosterone that had boosted my confidence turned into vapor and I started to doubt any decision that I had taken. Now my mind was filled with all the worst case scenarios. Each of them were flashing before me one after one, and each was worse that the preceding one. 

By the end of the day, I had to decide to ask her out or to let go of this opportunity and hope that she would be free for the next weekend. So, I went for it. As we were about to go home, I approached her and asked her out on a date. I decided to keep it simple and to not give her any weird idea. So, I said, "Natasha, would you be interested in going to the amusement park this weekend ? It's all right if you can't make it."

She was blushing so hard that her cheeks turned red. She was so shy and appeared so vulnerable at that very instant. It made me feel like my heart just skipped a beat and the weird feel of thrill and excitement went through my heart. My mind went on a total hormonal explosion. I had no idea what was going on and I had no control of the moment. I was so excited that I a part of me wanted to hold her tight and embrace the moment forever. But I held back as I didn't want to make a complete fool out of myself. The feeling of the moment was enough for me and it was alright even if she denied the offer as her face then was worth having tried it.

She replied positively and my blood was surging with testosterone, so much that I felt like I could win three marathons consecutively without any rest. Then I walked home with her. My feeling throughout the walk was as if I had been possessed by Aphrodite at the moment and I had no idea about it. However, I would not deny that I liked what I felt. I would not deny that I want to feel the same way again and embrace the entire moment. 

The next day, as I approached school I realized that I was being noticed by everyone and was being gazed upon everyone in a peculiarly odd fashion. That was weird for one main reason because I am a pretty average guy in class. The one who sits in a lecture of 30 students and still has no favored odds of being picked by a teacher. Then a boy from the class approached me. This again is strange as I have never talked to this guy. And to be honest, I don't even know his fucking name. He approaches me and asks, " Is it true that you and Natasha are dating ?"

That explained a lot because in a particularly normal class like mine there are very few chances of two people from the same class falling in love with each other. And what's more unique was the fact that after other people are aware about it, you should be ready to face the consequence of strangely deviated references towards you throughout the class. Even during the lectures when the teacher is in class. And with all honesty, I don't think that any person in their right mind would want it. So, I try to avoid the question and at the same time Natasha came in through the door. Then he asked the same question to Natasha. But without any hesitations she agreed to it.

Later, I asked her ," I thought that we would not tell it to others and keep it a secret from the others."

 She replies ," Well I did say that. But somethings are just way to irresistible and you have to do it while you have the chance. And to be fair, I did want to show off a bit and make others jealous."

Although whatever she said did not make much sense, I could not help myself for falling for her haughty side. The more I talked to her, the more I found myself being attracted to her.

(Next Chapter :And it goes on forever. )

P.S. The surge of testosterone here signifies increase in confidence, not the increase in sex drive.