One sided love

Chapter 13 - Fooled

Lee Jieun's pov

Sehun drove me home, obviously curious of how bad my state really was. I only told him it was bad, I never told him how bad. The love I had for him burned me inside, telling me I should say the truth, but I just couldn't bare to do it. Maybe I was too weak, or maybe I just wanted to forget it - to just forget the awaiting death that wouldn't pain just me, but to those who loved me as well.

I silently bid goodbye to him, with a small, forced smile and a wave of my hand. I didn't say a word to him and he seemed to stare at me, waiting for me to say something. I hope you get home safely, was the thought I sent to him instead. Usually I would say those words with a bright smile, but this time it just didn't feel right.

We weren't who we used to be after this whole forced marriage thing.

I had never been Sehun's, and hehad never been mine. And although I was Myungsoo's in pretty much every possible way now, he was never mine either. He didn't even want me to enter his life in any shape or form in the first place.

Romeo and Juliet? A tragic love story between two lovers? No, it wasn't about lovers. Our story was more like about people, who acknowledged each other's existence, and lived together in the same apartment like roommates, but that would be pretty much all of it. 

And if it would be the famous tragedy from Shakespeare, I would be the Juliet that would eventually die, promising that my love would last forever even beyond death. But my Romeo, Myungsoo, would not ever die for me.

I walked in our house and tried not to be discouraged by the sight, but it was really hard. The breakfast and the meal I had made for Myungsoo was still on the table, cold and untouched.

I made them with a lot of effort, hoping those would be good enough for him, and that he'd enjoy eating them. I saw the trash around it, empty pizza boxes and some cheese that had dropped on the table from the them. Those trashes were placed around my handmade food as a protest.

Where was he anyway? I could see he wasn't at home and I could hear the powerful rain outside, hitting the roof with all it's might. The weather broadcast had promised a dangerous storm, and it seemed like it really did come. I was cleaning after my thoughtless husband, when my phone beeped. I was curious of who would send me a text since I never really received them.

I checked the message fast, not wanting to waste time on something pointless.But I almost dropped my phone on the floor as I scanned through the words, somehow miraculously managing to keep it in my grip. I had to read the message again, and again, just to make sure I read it right. And I did, which almost gave me a heart attack.

"Jieun! Myungsoo was beaten up, but he ran away from me! Please help him! -Suzy"

I couldn't think straight at all. All I thought about was finding him, making sure he was okay. I threw my phone on the table so it wouldn't get wet outside, and ran to our hallway. I barely even put my shoes on as I already ran outside. The wind was very strong and made it hard to breathe against it. I didn't even have a jacket with me, but I didn't let it bother me. All I cared about right now was finding Myungsoo and bringing him to safety.

I squeezed the umbrella I had in my hands tighter as I ran. I would give only to him, an umbrella I brought just in case I couldn't protect him from the rain, it was not for me to use. I ran and ran, in every direction and nearby places he could have gone.

I checked every alley and trash bin, in case he'd hidden from the rain. I couldn't possibly know how he reacted to this kind of weather, so I thought I should check just in case. I even checked his usual hangout places, but no one was seen outside. Of course not, it was a storm out there.

I was drenched in five minutes after I stepped out, and the cold wind really made my soaked body freeze. I still continued my search with clattering teeth. The rain grew heavier and heavier, so much until every drop that hit me, hurt me. I knew they would give me bruises, so what would it do to the beaten Myungsoo? He would probably die if he would stay in the rain.

Maybe he had already collapsed, maybe he had found some cover, maybe he had... died already. Maybe, maybe. I could only assume things and that gave me fear, fear of losing him. All I wished for was that he would safe wherever he was. That he was somewhere warm and would just fall asleep without any problems bugging his mind. I hoped he wasn't wounded badly and that he would survive. I would even give my life for his survival.

I was dealing with the pain I got, but I didn't stop looking for him even for a second. I searched for him for what felt like hours. I felt desperate for not finding him and my legs felt powerless from all the running. My vision started to spin, but I hit my cheeks to keep myself walking instead of closing my eyes.

At that point I realized that I should check if he had already arrived home. Maybe we walked on different roads and passed each other without knowing it. I would go home and then, if he wasn't there, I'd come back here to look for him.

I proceeded with my plan and I was delighted to see the lights shining through our windows. A small smile formed on my lips as I slowly, taking small steps at a time, walked towards the door. I heard laughing from outside the door and it warmed me, making me excited by the possibilities of him being okay.

I heard his laugh, and also Suzy's laugh. Maybe she came here and found him. Then she treated his wounds and now they were relaxing after the accident. Maybe they even tried contacting me and tried telling me that he was fine after all, but I had just left my phone inside.

I opened the door with a great relief and after that, I heard a quiet smash they couldn't pick up. That smash, came from my heart. It broke into tiny pieces and I wondered should I pick them up or not. I saw Suzy sitting on the couch, cuddling with the perfectly fine Myungsoo. I was so, so, so relieved that he was okay. But the thing was, I wasn't. I knew my state would only go worse after this, but still, I sacrificed everything for him.

After they had noticed me, my legs gave up and I sat down by the door. "Jieun..?" Myungsoo asked and for the first time after we've met

But soon after I fell down on the ground, giving into the darkness that engulfed me in seconds.