Family Discipline

Chapter 44

Tanner POV

I probably should head back to the car. I've been gone awhile and surely they've noticed I'm missing.

I don't know what I'm doing with my life or how it got so out of control. Everything was just fine before Gray and Eden forced me into talking about something o never wanted to. Now Mr. Reid knows my darkest secret and can use it against me.

I'm seriously thinking of calling an uber back to Jersey I don't know if I can sit with Eden knowing we are over and me still being completely in love with her. If she looks at me or if I hear her voice I know I'm going to break and I'm tired of crying.

But what do you do when you're in deep shit and you upset the only person that matters in this world. How do I even come back from this? I have to get her back I can't loose her not like this.

I was drawn out of my head by sound of her voice.

"Tanner? What are you doing out here all alone? We've been looking everywhere for you. Come here."

And there it is just the sound of her voice started the water works again.  Dammit I hate this.

"What do you want Eden. I need a minute."

"No you're crying I can hear it in your voice and see your shoulders shaking. Babe come here please."

"Don't."

"Don't what?"

"Don't stand there and call me babe and be concerned like you give a damn Eden. I fucking love you and I hate myself for it. Is this what you wanted? Huh to break me well congratulations here it is."

"Tanner please come here. I do care that's why I'm here right now and not Grayson. I overreacted and I'm sorry. Please don't cry."

"Don't cry okay. What do you want me to do. Put a smile on,  laugh and make jokes pretend that I'm okay and my heart isn't shattered into a million pieces. This what you're seeing is a result of what I lost. I lost you Eden and its killing me. So yeah these tears the pain I feel is because I love you so fucking much but I fucked up like I fuck up everything good in my life. Just go please."

I turn away from her as I was loosing any control I had left and quick. It was getting harder to breathe and the tears were falling faster. Next thing I know she grabs my hand and turns me around to face her. I try to look away but she grabs my face and gently wipes away the tears.

"Tanner Scott don't turn away from me. I was upset for a lot of different reasons and I reacted poorly and for that I'm sorry. I took it out on you and that wasn't fair. When all of this shit with my dad blows over we need to talk and I mean really talk about everything. I love you and want what's best for you. I want to be the girlfriend you want and need me to be no matter what is happening in our lives and I hope one day you will let me be that again or try. I'm a work in progress and I need you to hang in there with me."

That was more than I could take and I was no longer silently crying I started bawling into her arms and making incoherent promises and holding her so tight afraid to let her go.

I have never needed someone or loved someone like I did her and hope was the only thing I had left to hold onto.

"Babe calm down okay. We need to get going. Gray is waiting for us and everyone else is in the car. I know you're scared and it's okay you have me and Gray and my mom won't let anything happen to you. We will get through this I promise."

I was crying way to hard to try and talk but I pulled away and ran a hand over my face and tried to control myself.

"Tanner."