Sway

Little gay side

I stayed with Riley for a couple more hours. We wound up chilling on her leather couch, watching Sopranos. She loved the show - she'd try to mimic their deep Bronx accents and recited every phrase that Tony said. I on the other hand was just happy to be content for the moment. She was so easy to relax with, super calm yet still hilarious and fun. I'm pretty sure she's the friend that I've been needing in my life. Phineous is my number one and always will be, but he's just so frantic and colorful. I love it most of the time, but there are other times when I really just want someone to cuddle with and not worry about the dramatics in life. Obviously it was cruel for me to be leading Riley on, but I was just so afraid to lose her from my life completely. Also, I loved having sex with her.

Now I was slipping out of my shoes and attempting to tip toe into Phineous's bedroom where he was sound asleep. Unfortunately, I was not a light human being. With every step, the floorboards would croak louder and louder. I was nearly at my side of the bed when his scarf covered head flipped up from the pillow. His light green eyes squinted as he tried to gain clarity,

"Where the hell have you been? It's what..." he turned to look at the bedside clock, "11 PM?"

I made a face as I crawled into the bed without taking off my clothes, "Aren't you the one who said I should spend my time in New York having fun?"

He was giving me his best 'Mom' look, "Yeah, but, I never said come home smelling like sex."

I laughed and punched him in his bare arm, "Fuck you!"

"No not me, but Charlotte I'm guessing." He was curious now, sitting up on his elbows.

My throat got a little tighter as I thought about how I was going to tell him the truth. Deciding that honesty was my best bet, I spit out the truth. "Actually, not Charlotte. Riley."

He was silent, and anytime Phineous is silent, it's a bad sign. "Are you fucking serious, Tal?"

My head turn to the right slightly so that I could better look at the anger on his face. "I'm sorry Phin, I- I just. I can't explain it."

"Well you better bloody try! I thought you were hanging out with Charlotte after work."

"I was... I did. Stuff happened though." My insides cringed just thinking about how awkward things had gotten with Charlotte at the Beats 'n Eats thing. I honestly wasn't expecting it to turn out like that.

He stood up and turned on the bedroom light, then sat back down on the bed. "Why are you being so vague? You know you can talk to me Talia."

I smiled, remembering that he was my bestest friend in the whole globe. "I know, I'm just embarrassed I guess. I wanted things to go well with Charlotte, but I just don't know if I can deal with her sexual confusion." The truth sounded so shitty as it left my mouth. Like word vomit. I couldn't keep lying to myself and to Phineous though. Having such strong feelings for someone and not even knowing if you'll ever get the chance to be with them just, well, it sucks.

He had a sympathetic look on his face, "I'm sorry Tal, what happened to make you go to Riley's?"

That's when I explained everything that happened between us earlier. From the perfect start at Sarabeth's, to the strangely dramatic turn of events in SoHo. The whole time I was explaining, he was 'ooh'ing and 'ahh'ing. It was as if I was back at that food cart, debating on whether or not to be honest about my interpretation of her offer. To me it just seemed like such a 'date' thing to do. I mean, why else would she offer to pay for my food?

"You're absolutely right," now I was at the end of the explanation, "that was a total date move."

"I know! For fucks sake, I knew it wasn't wrong about that."