Beyond Surface

Chapter 28(II)_ The General Meeting (II)

Jireh's Point of View (P.O.V)

Song Credit_ Steel Banglez: Your Lovin'.

"I can’t get away from you babe
You’re always on my brain
Be done with all my games
I can’t get away from you
I learned this from you
Love's an option you choose

Your loving, come give me your loving
Dance on me
You’ve got that one something
Your loving, come give me your loving
Dance on me
You’ve got that one something
Your loving, come give me your loving
Dance on me
You’ve got that one something that I’m deep in
That’s something I believe in
That’s something that I’m needing
That’s something that I’m wanting, yeah".

***

The last two days have been the worst and most miserable days of my life. Living without Ann and staying away from her has been nothing but torturing. I had to abstain from calling her, on Yomi's order, and all through the days, as time ticked and breeze blew, I felt like my energy was being blown away, bit by bit.

And life was being sapped out of you too. Don't forget that.

Concentrating became the most difficult thing to do, and my apartment, reminded me of everything, flashing before me, Ann and Esosa's images, standing in the doorway. The sight and thought and memory haunted me, and prevented me from being sane. Simply put, I almost lost my sanity.

Almost?. You're mad man. You lost it already!.

But having a supportive system has always been an added advantage to me. Yomi, my all time support system, welcomed me into his apartment, to share with him, pending when things get well between us, or rather, I get the heart shattering flashback off my mind.

Can you?. Because I'll keep reminding you of it. You playerr!.

Today is the general meeting, and the day Ann is going to return from her journey, as well as the day I'm going to set my eyes on her, after what happened. And I am unable to describe the way I feel. It's more like I'm nervous and shy and ashamed and anxious, but embarrassed and disappointed at the same time. The past two days haven't been good to me, and I know I look like shit, unkept and worn-out, but I have to do this.

You're still handsome man...to everyone in skirt but Ann.

Yomi had woken me up as early as 9am, to get up and move down to my place to prepare for the meeting. I was reluctant at first, not wanting to attend the meeting, because I knew today's going to be a bitter-sweet day. The bitterness at an incredibly higher percentage than the sweetness though, because the only sweetness is that I'll set my eyes on my fiancee once again.

Okay, let's not say fiancee. Let's say Ann. I told you you've lost it. She's not wearing your ring anymore!.

On Yomi's persistence, I finally got up and strolled down to my place and sluggishly began to get dressed. Bathing has been the only soothing thing, apart from Yomi's encouraging words, so I took my time to take a therapeutic bathe, which lasted longer than it should.

Men don't stay long in bathrooms. You see?, you've lost it!.

I pulled a grey, short-sleeved, cotton shirt over my head. Properly buttoned up and laced with a black tie, then, coupled with a black pant. Not fitting and not slacking, but it's just the perfect pant for the day, and the best one for a frustratedly-dying man like me.