U and I (postponed)

Chapter 01

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"hmmmm"

another day, another life. And as always maririnig ang pagkaingay ingay na bunga—

"hooooooyyyyy!!! elaine!!! wake up!" sabi ng nasa kabilang pinto habang katok ng katok ng pagkalakas lakas. Hindi ba siya nasasaktan?

"when do you freakin' plan to wake up?!" sigaw pa nya, seriously hindi ba siya nasasaktan?

I plugged my earphones in my ear and played a very loud but very nice peice of the piano on my phone. But, what the— rinig na rinig parin ang pagkaingay ingay niyang bibig.

he improved... again.

Mark the sarcasm there.

"hey! when are you gonna stop hiding there?!" and when are you gonna stop nagging? pshh, parang bakla.

Urhgghh kainis!

Dahil sa kaingayan ay hindi ako makatulog ulit, sinabayan pa ng kanina pang nagiingay na alarm clock ko.

Nang hindi ko na matiis ang kanyang kaingayan ay napagdesisyonan ko na na bumangon at sapukin ang nasa pinto.

As i stand up i unplugged my earphones and stopped my never ending alarm, and went to the door.

"argh, finally" he said with his sarcasm. *sniff sniff* "ewww sis, when was the last time you took a bath?" he said with his hand gesture, which clearly meant he's insulting me.

I smiled sarcastically and said "thanks for the compliment, now if you'll excuse me" 'tas nilagyan ng duct tape ang kanyang bibig sabay sara ng pinto. I just hope na hindi niya tagkalin ang duct tape.

After a few minutes i decided to finally get up and went to the bathroom. And there, i took my time to bathe.

elaine, stop moping around

i thought

without warning, i felt a few drops of tears slowly getting out of my eyes.

it was you who made the choice! so why would you act like this?!

heh! it's not like i have a choice! oh wait, i had a choice. It was to let others suffer.

you made the right choice, elaine. You weren't for each other, you weren't destined to be together, you weren't—

*riiiing riiiing riiiing*

my senses came back as I've heard to ringing sound. "yes, hello?" tanong ko sa kabilang linya.

"you're late" here demanding voice never changed, pero, ano daw? late? saan?

"where?" i finally asked.

"don't you remember? it's bela's wedding today!" she shouted, shocked was very evident in her voice. She probably was surprised i forgot.

I was the very first to be so excited about bela's wedding, so why wouldn't she be surprised if i forgot?

I was shock myself

Her dream finally came true...

i thought to myself

"hello? you still there?" tanong sa akin when i didn't replied.

"yeah? what is it?" tanong ko sa kanya

"aren't you coming?" pagtataka niya, everyone was so sure I'd be there. Because, it was my bestfriends wedding. But now....

"I won't, sorry" i whispered the last part, i just couldn't say those words normally. It reminds me of the bitter past.

I can't go, if i went there I'm sure I'll see him again. And I'm afraid, so afraid. That my feelings may still be there, somewhere.

I won't go, I'm still weak, i still haven't moved on yet.

I still, love him
I still, miss him
I still, long for him
I still, can't remove him
in my mind
in my ear,
in my lips,
in my eyes,
in my nose,
in my hand,
in my heart.

I can still feel his arms around mine, his hand helding mine and his soft and loving kiss.

I can still smell his cologne, his scent that represents peace, protection and his love.

I can still see his images everywhere, doing stuffs that i know he would do. I can still taste his warm and loving kiss, and the foods he made especially for me.

I can still hear his soft laugh, his sweet compliments, his funny jokes and his never ending confessions of love.

I still can't get rid of him in my mind, i can still remember every memories we shared together. Our dreams and hopes, our fights and love, i still remember it all. Especially, that day, i could never forget my bitter past. My bitter past with him, but somehow i would still want to remember it everyday, i could still his love on that day.

I still, hold him fearly in my heart. I still can't let him exit my heart. I'm still afraid, afraid that ones i completely let him go... I, might never be able to see him, to feel him, to hear him, smell him, touch him and he might never cross my mind again. I'm afraid, to let him go....