HIS POSSESSION [ Under Editing ]

25. HATE OR LOVE

( Akshat's P.O.V )

I felt like some invisible force is holding me by neck, choking me.
I couldn't breathe properly, whole world spinned and blurred around me.
I felt helpless, devastated, confused & shattered,
What have I done.!!

I built this wall of hatred between Guddan and Me just because I got tangled in an evil plan.

How can I be so stupid,
I never once tried to ask Guddan about truth.
I made wrong assumptions and worst decisions.

No I've to make everything alright, i've created this chaos & I'm going to fix it.

I came out of my reverie as I saw Guddan running outside the door,.
I called after her but she ignored me, someone took ahold of my hand & I saw Ahaana coming forward with tear filled eyes.

" Akshat please trust me, I didn't do anything. This is nothing, just a joke. You trust me right.?  "

I jerked my hand away from her grip & seethed with utter anger.

" Stay away from me Ahaana, I swear if you were a boy I would've ripped that little brainless head of yours off your body.
Leave me and Guddan alone "

I ran in the direction Guddan went while my eyes began scanning around me for any trace of her.
It didn't took long to catch up her trail and I found myself at the same spot where we were after messed up family meet.

My heart pained at the sight of Guddan looking so alone and broken,
She was sitting on the rock with her head hung low and her shoulders were shaking,
I can't see her crying like this.
It's all my fault.

I silently went near and sat beside her without taking my eyes off of her.
She felt my presence and slowly peeked through the black curtain of hair with eyes filled with moisture.
I tore my gaze away and fixed it at the horizon.

" I am Sorry, I shouldn't have assumed anything without asking you "
I snapped my neck in her direction stunned.

" Guddan you've nothing to apologize for, I should ask for forgiveness.
I acted without even giving a second thought. "
I shut my eyes as my voice broke down in the end and a tear escaped my eye.

Few moments later a soft shuffling sound reached my ear and a feather light touch wiped my tear away.

" Don't be sad Akshat, it was all misunderstanding. "

I nodded and turned towards her,
Even in the dim moonlight and tears glistening in her eyes, Guddan still was looking breathtakingly elegant.
I was lost in a trance and in a moronic way I blabbered out the most stupidiest thing my mind could even imagine.

" You said that you hate me, "

" You said it right back to me "

" You said that first, I replied back later "

" But you were talking shit, I got angry "

" You were blaming me for leaving you "

" You provoked me "

" You...... "

" I...???  I what Akshat.? "

" Damn I don't know, Can we please not talk about this. I don't want to fight with you "

I noticed as a ghost expression crossed her face but it disappeared as soon it came.
Guddan stood up with a sad sigh and went near the edge of the cliff.
I stood behind while she spoke.

" That night when I left you here after telling my story I was feeling guilty to act like that.
I couldn't sleep that whole night, just one thing was popping up in my mind that what I did was wrong.
Next morning I went college early because I wanted to find you, to apologize and to ask you for a chance.
But when I saw you with Ahaana in that empty corridor, my whole world crumbled at my feet.
I became numb, i...... "

She choked on her tears and broke down through mid sentence,
I placed my hands on either side of her shoulders and pulled her to me.
She sniffled and gazed directly at me.

" I'm sorry about behaving that way,
But I don't want to feel like that.
I was vulnerable, broken that time when I saw you with Ahaana.
That's what I am afraid of Akshat.
I'm afraid one day you will fed up with me and leave me for real.
And i'll not be able to do anything. "

More tears streamed down her face while my own eyes began to burn with tears.
I grasped her face and forced her to look in my eyes.

" I'll never leave you alone,
You are not alone, I'm with you
At every moment, I'm here for you.
Just please don't shut me out, we will make it through every situation.
I want to work on our relationship,
I want to and I'll try my best to become a perfect man for you,
I promise I'll never put you in that confused & lone state ever. Neither will my trust ever decrease in you,in us."

A small smile displaying hope appeared on Guddan's face and she replied nodding.
I kissed her forehead and hugged her wishing to never end this moment.

" So that means you don't hate me right.? "
Guddan spoke after a while, her tone was of joking but this time I told her only the truth in complete seriousness.

" No.!!  I can never hate you Guddan,
In fact I am in love with you "

This is the feeling which I recognized when Guddan ran away from me from the party,
Her disappearance made me realise what a mistake I've done,
How intense my feeling for Guddan is.
How I not only like her but am in love with her.

I searched for any contradicting emotion across her face but all I found was new set of tears and a pretty smile.

" Feeling is mutual Mr. Jindal "

We both cracked out laughing with moist eyes under the peaceful sky with moon embedded on it's surface surrounded by gleaming stars.

Guddan opened her mouth to say something but I never gave her the chance to finish her words as my heart & soul tangled with beauty in front of me and I sealed the deal of our promised forever in a passionate kiss.

The new begining of our life.