The girl that I found inside me

Woman

Mom and dad stayed in their room the rest of the day. Megan stayed with me for all this time except a few times when parents called her to their room to get answers for some questions. But they didn't want to talk to me, at least for now. Part of me was glad for that, I don't know what I was supposed to say to them. At some point I went to bed and tried to get some sleep.

I woke up and got ready for the day. I was really hoping that situation will clarify itself today. I took a shower and dressed up in a cute black over knee skirt, black pantyhose and sleeveless red blouse than I did my makeup. It was nothing fancy, just my everyday look. I guess it would be good to show my parents how I'll be looking every day from now on. When I was ready I went downstairs to the kitchen for some breakfast. I was eating my cereal when my parents came as well. For few seconds they stared at me like they didn't know what to say, but finally my mother said wormly

- Good morning dear.... well... we need to talk - she said while taking a seat on the other side of a table, father sat next to her - your father and I are... well... quite confused with all of this. You must understand that it's difficult to accept that... but first of all remember that we will always love you, nothing can change that

Father kept silent. He was looking sometimes at me and sometimes at any point in the room that wasn't me. Mother continued

- We are worried about what that change will mean and we want the best for you. So please don't be mad, but we have some questions to ask...

She made a pause that felt like it was an hour and then continued

- Soooo, how did this happen?

- Well - I had problems with finding proper words, but it still was much easier to talk than the night before - It all started when a clerk in a mall took me for a girl and suggested that I should try on a dress. - I didn't want to throw Megan under the bus here, so I changed the details of her giving me a decisive push towards trying on female clothes - I walked away from the mall, but when I got home I couldn't stop thinking about it... so I took some of Megan's clothes and tried them on. And it all felt really good. I loved it. I Started to dress up more and more. And finally at some point I decided that I should dress like that all the time. So I said Megan about it and from that moment I'm a girl.

I was surprised how I was able to say that calmly and even more surprised that parents took it very well. Mom just went to the next question

- And you are sure that's what you want?

- Yes! - I said with real confidence.

- But what about your future? How will you go to college or find a job? You will have to show people your ID.

- I didn't thought about that - I said after a short pause

- Are you thinking about.. you know... sex change operation?

- Well... No - I saw a little relief on parents faces - I feel completely a girl right now I don't need to change anything

- And... are you now interested in... boys?

- No mom! I'm still into girls, that didn't change.

- Ok... so maybe, if you like to dress up like a girl you could dress up only sometimes and keep your normal life as a man? It would be so much easier.

- No mom! It's not like that! I don't like to "dress up like a girl" I like "being a girl" and my normal life is being a woman! This is who I am now! - I said a little louder

- Ok, ok, sweetie, don't get mad. Remember, we just want the best for you and we just want to understand - she paused for a while - So you are absolutely sure about this?

- There is nothing that I'm more sure than that

- Ok then... guess I can get used to the fact of having two daughters - she said while reaching her arms for a hug. I was so happy! She accepted me! I got up and ran towards her and gave her a big hug. I started crying with tears of joy- I must say you are a really pretty girl

I laughed a little threw tears. This meant a lot coming from her. She released me from the hug and I looked on dad. He was still sitting on his chair. Throughout the whole conversation he didn't say a word. He just sat there. Finally, he stood up. I was hoping that he'd come to hug me as well, but he turned around and went outside the house.

- Well.. your father needs some more time to think about it, but don't worry he'll come along

The next few hours I spent some quality time with my mom and Megan that came downstairs a few minutes later. Mom just switched smoothly to treating me as a girl I've become. She called me Michele and used "she" and "her" pronouns. I was so happy. Time passed by quickly and at some point dad went back home. We all stopped in silence waiting for him to say something. Finally he said

- Well... - father wasn't very good with words, acting was his thing - I still need some time... but... - he didn't say nothing more, just put a document folder in front of me and went to his room

I quickly opened the folder. There were a lot of forms to fill and I saw the titles of the first three of them "Recognition of Change of Gender", "Petition for Change of Name" and "Issuance of New Birth Certificate". I covered my mouth and tears started to come in my eyes. Megan read the forms names and realized what that means

- Oh my God! It's going to be official! You'll become my sister for good! - she gave me a big hug - need a pen?

After a second of puzzlement I nodded energetically towards her with a big smile on my face. She brought me a pen and I started to write words that will seal my late changes. "Name: Michele'', "Gender: Female"....