It's our recollection day. Sa lahat ng mga kaklas ko, ako lang yata ang walang pake elam. Kahit pa sabihin nila na masaya ang recollection ay wala parin akong pake elam.
Pagpasok namin sa room kung saan kami magre-recollect ay naghanap na kami ng upuan. I choose the one next to my best friend, Reinne. I'm at her right side, while her two other best friends are at her left side. After the flag ceremony, the Brother who's gonna recollect us came in.
"Ang pangit ng suot pero cute yung mukha." Sabi ni Reinne kaya napalingon ako sa kanya.
"Gago." I mumbled.
"Good morning to all. I'm Brother Edward Paredes. And I want all of yu to be silent. Don't worry, hindi ito klase." Sabi ni Brother at isa isang binasa ang nametag namin. Mukhang nahihirapan si Brother na basahin yung pangalan ko kaya sinabi na ni Jarel. Doon ko lang din nakita ng malinaw yung mukha ni Brother. Yeah, he's cute.
"Caomhie (Kayowmi) po."
Nasa right side na ni Reinne si Jarel because we exchanged places.
I'm not really paying attention to what Brother is saying. May pinanood sya sa amin na video about discnnecrt and reconnect... I think?
"Please take down some notes." Paalala samin ni Brother. Pagkatapos ng video ay nagtanonog sya.
"Ano ang unang step na narinig nyo sa video?" May mga nagtaas ng kamay. I didn't even bother rasing my hands.
"To disconnect your self from your gadgets to face the real world."
May iba pang sinabi si Brother pro isa lang ang tumatak sa isip ko doon sa video. And that is, you have to disconnect for you to be able to reconnect. We have to disconnect disconnect to our own world for us to be able to reconnect to others.
After recess ay may pinagawa sa aming activity. Hindi daw klase pero may pa-take down notes at activity pa?
"I want all of you to get a bond paper and draw your hand and your wrist." We did what we've been told to do. "On your thumb, write all of your source of happiness."
I wrote down wattpad, cats, teddy bear, music, and pocketbooks.
"On your pointing finger, write down all of the things you want to change about your self, physically and emotionally."
I wrote down Expression, attitude, physical appearance, and emotion. I want change ll of these for me to be loved. Almost everybody have my expression because I always put up an emotionless face. Almost everybody hate my attitude because of I always don't care. Almost everybody hate my physical appearance because I'm thin and ugly. Almost everybody hates the emotion I always show.
"On the middle finger, write down lahat ng bagay na pumipigil sayo na makamit ang gusto mo."
I wrote down anxiety, friends, subjects, and family.
"On the ring finger, write the sources of your pain and sorrow."
I wrote down anxiety, friends, depression, and family. They are the ones who can only make me feel sad and hurt.
"On the pinky finger, write down all the achievements in your life."
I wrote down Ms. Hope when I was prep, and 13th honor when I was in grade 2. Yeah., I was Ms. Hope when I was little, but now, I'm losing hope.
"On the palm, write the thing or someone that gives you inspiration."
What's the thing that gives me inspiration? I leaved it blank. I don't really know what gives me inspiration.
"On the wrist, write the name you want to be called, and below it, write a word that best describes you."
I wrote my nickname, Umi. And below it, I wrote dead. I'm dead inside out. I lost interest on daily activities.
"Then ibaliktad nyo yung papel nyo. Go to someone and write what you want to say. You can say thank you or sorry."
I snatched Reinne's paper and wrote, Thank you for being my best friend.
I wrote on my own paper. Thank you for still being alive. Thank your for being martyr every time you see your best friend with someone else, you're still putting up a smile to hide the pain. Thank you for not being good enough to let your friends stay by your side. Thank you for being strong.
I fold the paper so I can hide the message I wrote for myself.
"Umi, yung papel mo?" I gave Kirby my paper. He gave it back to me. There are also some who wrote something on my paper.
"Salamat dahil ikaw yung nagpapasaya kapag wala tayong magawa." -Kirby :>
"Salamat sa pakikisama mo." -Isabel.
"Thank you for being my friend, you are really good and I wish that you will remain happy always." -Beneth.
"Thank you for being my friend. Yung palaging kasama mag recess. Sana maging friend kita forever :>" -Audrey.
"Stay humble." -Jarel.
"Thank you for being a true friend of mine." -Tom.
"Thank you sa pagsama sa akin na gumala kahit minsan hindi natutuloy." -Ysabelle.
"Salamat at naging kaibigan kita. At sorry din sa hinding maganda na nagawa ko sayo." -Elaiza.
"Hey man, thanks for the food hahaha... Sorry if I kinda abused your generosity, but still thank you. And I'll help you in your studies 'cuz someone told me to (Reinne)." -CJ.
"Yo blyatch! Salamat sa lahat ng mga bagay, mga trip natin, mga kalokohan hehe basta nandito lang ako, kami if you need any help, basta yun... love u." -Reinne.
"You are loved! You are worth it! Make your parents proud someday!" -Edward Paredes.
After non ay pinag lunch na kami.
