How a bird gained freedom

Chapter 6: Confusion

Evan and I haven't chatted for a while. During the past week, whenever i texted him, he would tell me that he is busy and he is sorry, and that we will chat soon. This annoys me a lot. He doesn't realize that i can’t sleep well if we don't talk at least twice a week.  I need his love, I need his time, When everything's wrong he makes it right. I feel so high, I come alive, I need to talk to him to feel alright. I take a deep breath every time he doesn’t text me. I know he's there but he acts as if he's not! Like im not stupid if he is not online on chat the message won’t be delivered. I feel so helpless here, and my eyes are filled with fear and desperation. I don’t understand how he can’t make 5 minutes to text his girlfriend. I should be one of his priorities! Its starting to become really annoying. 

i try to get Evan out of my head, so i started painting. i painted a skull with a flower in the mouth because it represents how angry and sad im from him. im still tempted to text him though, so i go for it and text him about how i feel. later that day, Evan replies to my text:

"Baby stop complaining. You are being annoying."

Now im the one being annoying, not him! he made me even get more angry at him, but because i love him so much that I don’t want to lose him, i text him back telling him that im sorry for being annoying. He then texts me:

“Baby im not mad at you, but you just need to become less needy."

I bet he forgot how hard he was trying to get my attention when we first met. What happened to the guy that used to text me day and night? I decided to give him a break from me for let’s say about a week. Im pretty sure when i open my phone it will be full of texts from him, telling me how much he misses me. That should teach him a lesson. Many other boys out there have asked me out a million of times, and i said NO. that’s enough to show how much i love him. hes far away surrounded by the ocean and i still want to be with him. Some people might think that what im doing is stupid and that long distance relationships don’t work. But they are wrong! i don’t think they searched youtube to see how many videos about long distance relationships there are. and besides which is better; dating a douchbag that lives close to you or being with someone that you really love that would treat you like a princess but is far away from you? 

A week and a half passes by, and Evan and i didn’t text. I want him to text me first, to show him that im not needy and i have a life other than him. To my surprise he texts me today:

Evan: "Babe i miss you so much."

No he misses me; ill pretend that i don’t care. But im week for him i can’t do that.

“I miss you too my love."

We chat for a couple of hours, and then we both go to sleep. During the upcoming month, i have to apply for universities, and going to university in Australia is my only chance of meeting Evan and being with him. I tell my parents that I want to study in Australia. At first my mom is hesitant about it, but then she gets convince, but off course i don’t mention Evan because id I do they well never ever agree. My dad yells at me and tells me that i should study in the USA like my brother, and he tells me that Australia is too far away and we don’t have anyone there. I get mad at him, so I go to my room and cry. My mom enters the room, and tells me that i shouldn’t worry, because he will eventually get convinced.

A while passes, and i have applied both to Australia and the USA. I open my email to see if im going where i want to go.  

"Dear Wardeh Barakat,

Congratulations and welcome you to the University of Rockdale Sydney. I am pleased to advise that subject to the approval of the Faculty of Graduate Studies, you will be admitted to the fine art program beginning September."

I jump in joy after reading this email. My dreams are starting to come true!

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(GETTING OUT OF FLASHBACK AND GOING BACK TO RECENT TIME, IN THE HOSPITOL)

All that remembering of the love between me and Evan made me become a bit stronger. I need to wake up; i need to feel his touch again. I still cant figure out what happened to me! Why am I on an Australian hospital bed, injured, with Evan beside me feeling my cheeks while im unconscious? Nothing makes sense to me right now.

A nurse suddenly enters the room with a cart full of appliances and medications. She faces Evan and says:

“Young man, your visit time is over now. You need to leave."

Tears slowly drizzle down from Evan's beautiful blue eyes, and he tells the nurse:

"No! I need to be with Wardeh. Sorry, I can’t leave her."

Nurse: "Young sir, leave before i call the security guards to take you away! Only family members are allowed to stay for longer time with patients."

Evan:" I am her family, she has no one but me. Just give me ten more minutes, please."

Nurse:" That can't be true, how are you her only family member?"

Evan:"Im her boyfriend, and soon to be her fiancé, and later her husband. Her family is what caused her to be in this situation, they abandoned her, and now they want to get rid of her."

Nurse:" oh, im sorry to hear that. Ill give you just ten more minutes not more."

Evan:"Ok, Thanks so much."

Im more confused now. My family got me injured? Why would they do that? It makes no sense at all. During the extra ten minutes, Evan caresses my hair and gently kisses my hand, neck, and lips. He then holds my face, stares at me, and says:

"It’s my entire fault i should have protected you more, i shouldn’t have tempted you to doing it with me. Baby please forgive me. I love you so freaking much."

As he says those words, his sweet tears drop onto my cheeks. Then, my eyes start to slowly open, and i stare in Evan's eyes after a long time of being unconscious. I notice that the nurse is standing near the door watching what’s going on with a look of joy on her face.

Evan smiles, but doesn’t say a word. He slowly comes closer to me and gently French kisses me, while having one hand on my cheek and the other on my waist. He kisses me again and again, until the nurse enters and says: 

"Let's see how your girlfriend’s injury is."

I still cant put the pieces of the puzzle together. I can’t understand how my family shot me, and im now injured in the arm more towards the chest area. What did i do to deserve that? How did they manage to come to Australia?  The nurse changes the bandages and wraps on my injured flesh. I bled a lot! 

"Evan you need to tell me everything. What happened to me? i can’t remember what got me here?"

"Don’t worry baby I’ll explain everything to you."

After a couple of days, I get out of the hospital and move back in to my boyfriend's house on the Sydney shore. Since i got out from the hospital, I keep having these weird flashbacks about blood, and a gun shot. Evan still didn’t explain anything to me, he told me that he will tell me what happened to me after i relax and my injury gets completely heeled.