How a bird gained freedom

Chapter 10: Hell is mercey

Im trying to find a good song to listen to as i think of kinds of revenge. As im flipping through the songs i stop to listen to a song called "Long Distance" by Bruno Mars. Back when i was in Jordan when it was just a long distance relationship between me and Evan, I would always listen to this song when i miss him. This song described everything i felt.

"There's only so many songs that I can sing

To pass the time

And I'm running out of things to do
To get you off my mind

All I have is this picture in a frame
That I hold close to see your face everyday

With you is where I'd rather be
But we're stuck where we are
And it's so hard, you're so far
This long distance is killing me

I wish that you were here with me
But we're stuck where we are
And it's so hard, you're so far
This long distance is killing me

It's so hard, it's so hard
Where we are, where we are
You're so far
This long distance is killing me
It's so hard, it's so hard
Where we are, where we are
You're so far
This long distance is killing me

Now the minutes feel like hours
And the hours feel like days
While I'm away

Ya know right now I can't be home
But I'm coming home soon
Coming home soon

All I have is this picture in a frame
That I hold close to see your face again
Oh!
With you is where I'd rather be
But we're stuck where we are 
And it's so hard 
You're so far 
This long distance is killing me

I wish that you were here with me
But we're stuck where we are 
It's so hard 
You're so far 
Can you hear me crying?

With you is where I'd rather be
But we're stuck where we are 
And it's so hard 
You're so far 
This long distance is killing me

It's so hard, It's so hard
Where we are, where we are
You're so far
This long distance is killing me
It's so hard it's so hard
Where we are, where we are
You're so far
This long distance is killing me

There's only so many songs that I can sing
To pass the time"

Note: This song is for its original owner Bruno Mars and all copyright goes to him.

As im listening to this song, I also remember that my relationship is not perfect. There are many people trying to take my happiness away and ruin my relationship with Evan. Other than that, I remember a long time ago when i was 16 still living in jordan, that Evan once sent me offensive texts. Whenever i used to send him pictures of myself because he missed seeing me he would always comment nice stuff and show them to his friends in order to brag about how pretty he thinks i am. I once sent him pictures of myself in the snow when it was snowing in January in Jordan and he told me that i look like i gained weight in my lower body. i then asked him if he still thinks im pretty and he said that off course he does and that to him i will always be the prettiest sexiest girl in the world no matter how much i weighed. That was sweet, so i texted him that i love him so much and he replied by:" I love you too loads my fatty girl." He basically called me a fat girl when i was only 117 pounds and my height was 5'3 ft! It hurt my feelings when he told me that, so i told him that i was annoyed of it. He then told me that he’s sorry but i need to work out more at least run or get back to my dancing training. i kind of became sad for a while from what he told me, but i eventually forgot it and things went back to what they used to be and i didnt change anything about myself. Evan even thought that i became more fit and sexier after a while without even working out. It's hard sometimes to be in love with someone who is obsessed with the gym and being fit and all that stuff.

Finally i found it, I now know how i will take revenge. While looking at my old pictures i opened my brother’s facebook and i noticed that he was still in Australia, i think hes planning on something against me.  For days, i monitored his actions, until i finally came face to face with him. Holding a gun in my hand, i fired aiming at him, and as soon as i did that, i got locked behind the rusty prison bars.

Finally I got out of jail, and once more I tried to breathe the air of freedom. But there was stifling dust in the air, almost unbearable heat and no one was waiting for me. As the prison gates and its uncomfortable miseries receded, the world and streets belabored by the sun. No one smiled or seemed happy but who of these people could have suffered more than I did.  As the thought of Evan crossed my mind, the heat and the dust, the hatred and pain all disappeared, leaving only love to glow across a soul as clear as the sky. Through all this darkness only my face smiles when I see him in my thoughts. When we meet ill know how I will stand. As soon as I covered the length of this road, gone past all these gloomy arcades where people used to have fun. But not to glory. The sides have shut down and only the side streets are open in Sydney. I pass by houses of temptation, and that strange street in the downtown area of Sydney where police who’d staked down the area had rushed there to surround me. The same street where a month ago id been carrying a gun I borrowed and standing there to take revenge.

I remember standing there despite my confused emotions; I proceeded my plan of revenge carefully and calmly, looking neither to the right nor to the left. It was like a battle field between us. Samir stared into my eyes with pity thinking that because im a tiny girl that I can’t do anything to live my life normally again. But had I managed to kill him? No! Later I discovered that he pretended to be dead after the police came and took me to prison. They got what they wanted, my mom, brother, and everyone that was involved against me, but they thought that id be in prison for years, locked behind the bars for a murder crime I didn’t commit. Luckily I got out of prison after only a month of the fake crime as the jury proved me innocent. This is actually true.

Now im trying to go see the only person that stood by my side. The doors of his house are open! I entered the house slowly as it was late at night. Evan was on his bed, half asleep half awake. As I stood in front of him in the dark night, he saw glimpses of my shadowy figure. As I realized that he was actually awake, I turned on the lights and jumped in his warm arms not wanting to let go of him.

“You have been never out of my thoughts, where bit by bit you’ve taken shape, like an image in a dream, for this long one month you’ve been away. Finally you are back my baby!”

 "I love you so much, i cant believe that im finally with you again."

"Those inhuman bitches, how could they do this to you. they framed you to a crime you didnt do! Karma will come back at them some day."

"I know! when will i ever live a normal life!"

"Soon baby."

soon?! what did Evan mean by that ? does he have a plan to get rid of everyone that bothers me, or is he just saying that to make me feel better. i wish he is planing for something to make my life better, to get me out of hell that I've been living in all those years.