My One Shot Stories

# 22

[ If I could tell her]

✒ iamyourfictionalwriter

I'm Ashley Matsunaga, and I'll be celebrating my 18th Birthday without my brother Yuhen Matsunaga. He died because of Leukemia, 3 days before my birthday. Iniwan na ako..kami. Alam ko dapat kapag birthday mo lalo na kapag 18th dpat masaya pero hindi ko magawa though nakikita kong masaya sila mom pero halatang pilit.

Mag 17 na na roses pero yung sasayaw sakin nasa ilalim na ng lupa. Kaya si daddy ang sumasayaw sakin ngayon.

"You look like you're not okay, princess. You missed your brother?" He carefully swing me.

I nodded and rested my head in his chest, I started to sobbed but he carefully caressed my back and hushed me and said, "everything will be alright, sweetie. I know  it will"

Nakapabilog lahat sakin yung mga pinsan ko, kaibigan ko sa akin. Lahat ng 18th roses nakabilog sakin pero kulang ng isa.

Nasasaktan pa din ako sa pagiiwan niya.

Biglang nagsalita si mommy sa harapan at titig na titig sa akin sabay ngiti.

"Let us watch how Yuhen created a song to his princess.  Nag-video si Yuhen nung pumasok si Ash kaya walang kaalam alam tong prinsesa niya na kahit wala na siya he made a gift for her." Mom said as she cried..

I miss you Yuhen...so much..

May nag play na video sa malaking screen sa harap.

"Hi princess." There's my brother with his guitar and a smile plastered in his pale lips.

"I don't know If I can make it to your day, But If I don't here's my gift for you, princess. And as a promised I'll sing you a song that I made." He smiled again.

Umiiyak na ako ng makita kong nagsimula na siyang mag strum ng gitara.

There's nothing like your smile~
Sort of subtle and perfect and real~
He said..~
You never knew how wonderful~
That smile could make someone feel~

Damn that song.. Ginawa naming 2nd Person yung kanta kaya ganyan. Di ko aakalain na kakantahin niya talaga yan..

And he knew~
Whenever you get bored~
You scribble stars on the cuffs of your jeans~
And he noticed~
That you still fill out the quizzes~
That they put in those teen magazines~

Oh crap! Sinali niya pa pala yung ssa quizzes. I pouted.

But he kept it all inside his head~
What he saw he left unsaid~
And though he wanted to~
He couldn't talk to you~
He couldn't find the way~
But he would always say~

K-kuya... I started crying.. Nasa tabi ko na yung mga pinsan kong lalaki at inaako.

"Tigil na iyak Ash, kapag nakita ka ng kuya mong umiiyak lagot kami doon." Saad ni Hero

"I'm still hurt.." I sobbed

"Shh..hush now. Princess." Ivan hugged me and we continue to watch his present from me.

If I could tell her~
Tell her everything I see~
If I could tell her~
How she's everything to me~
But we're a million worlds apart~
And I don't know how I would even start~
If I could tell her~
If I could tell her~

He continue strumming his guitar kahit na nahihirapan na siya.

I'm just, I'm trying to remember the best ones so, um~
He thought~
You looked really pretty, er~
It looked pretty cool when you put indigo streaks in your hair~

Can I go with you?

There's a cold wind in my back like someone's hugging me from the back.

And he wondered how you learned to dance~
Like all the rest of the world isn't there~
But he kept it all inside his head~
What he saw he left unsaid~

If I could tell her~
Tell her everything I see~
If I could tell her~
How she's everything to me~

But we're a million worlds apart~

He smiled in the camera when he sing those words.. Million words apart...

And I saw a tear come up in his eyes.

And I don't know how I would even start~
If I could tell her~
If I could tell her~

But what do you do when there's this great divide?~
He just seemed so far away~
And what do you do when the distance is too wide?~
It's like I don't know anything~

And how do you say~
I love you~
I love you~
I love you~
I love you~

He continue it.

But we're a million worlds apart~
And I don't know how I would even start~
If I could tell her~
If I could her~

I can't stop crying as he finished that song.

"Princess, Don't cry when I left you alright? Be a strong women for me." He smiled, "Thank you for everything. Don't worry babantayan ka naman ni kuya mua sa taas kapag nawala ako eh tsaka andyan yung mga pinsan natin na sina Ivan. Pinapabantayan ko yang mga yan sayo kapag ikaw umiyak mumultuhin ko sila" He chuckled.

"Happy Birthday again, My princess." He said and smiled as the video ends.

I'm still not in myself as the video ends.

Can we rewind the days when we we're born and happy?

Can I hug him and dance with him again?

Can I kissed his cheeks and forehead when he's asleep and tired because of his assignments and projects?

Pwede bang hindi na lang siya nagkasakit at nawala sa amin?