My One True Love: Book 1

169 days before

*Bellamy

I have figured out what to say. Well for the most part. I will start out by saying "I'm sorry for the way that I have treated you these past months." Maybe some light flirting, and done she will instantly forgive me. i slightly laugh at my own stupidity.

I dont really care if she does or not though. Even though I'm going to stop "bullying" her it doesn't mean I'm going to stop hating that little privileged snob.

She just thinks shes better then everyone around her. It's why she only hangs around monty and jasper. Monty's parents own this huge pharmaceutical company, there crazy rich. And jasper's parents are top dog lawyers. I bet they bathe in there cash. Miss privileged princesses mom is the head surgeon at the biggest hospital in Washington.

They all have tons of spare cash just floating around in there lives and that's why they hangout. It makes me sick.

My mother died 2 years ago. She drank herself to death. She didnt like the life she was living so she ended it.

I've never met my dead beat dad and i hope to god I never have to. I'm 19 so I'm my little sister's legal guardian.

We bounced from home to home until I turned 18 last year. I feel like I've let Octavia down by being such an asswhole to her and everyone around me.

"Dude guess what!" Miller said dragging me from my thoughts. "Hmm?" I replied unamused.

"That girl clarke you've been messing with, shes got a girlfriend! I didnt know she swung that way." Miller told me.

I was shocked. Like jaw to the ground shocked. Is that why she slapped me? Because she likes girls? Not because she just didnt like me? Dang..

"jeez stop gossiping about other people's relationships and get your own." I said lazily.

Miller looked temporarily hurt. "Now that you mention it I want you to meet someone."

I was surprised did Miller finally get a girl? He walked up to this tall sad looking dude and pulled him back to me looking giddy.

"Bell I'd like you to me Jackson. My boyfriend." Once again jaw to the floor. I stuck my hand out. He shook it firmly.

I whispered to miller while we were walking to class "hes cute" and punched him on the arm before taking off in the opposite direction.

When I turned around to leave I ran right into clarke. She was reading. She wasn't paying attention, she flushed stuttering "I-im sorr-ry excuse m-me." She was staring at the floor but she knew it was me.

Was she to scared to look at me? "Hey." I said gently lifting her chin. "I'm sorry." I said firmly.

"I shouldn't have been treating you the way I have been ok. I thought maybe you thought I wasn't good enough because I'm poor. But I just found out about your girlfriend.. if I would have known that you just didnt like dudes at all.. none of this would have happend.. I-" she cut me off angrily "no Bellamy I'm bi not lesbian i still like guys." She said with a smirk.

"The reason I hit you and avoided you was because I had a boyfriend. He broke up with me when I told him about it!" She yelled. It was my turn to yell now. "Why the hell didnt you tell me clarke! I wouldn't have made a move if I knew! god your so annoying!" I snap At her.

She flinched hard, her eyes blazing with fear. "Why didnt you tell me?" I whisper. Her eyes were welling with tears. I hated hurting her. Why did this happen to us?

"I was falling, to hard to fast.." she whisperd before walking away. I could have had her. She was in my reach. And now shes gone again..