My One True Love: Book 1

4 days after

*Clarke

Bellamy and I drove through the night in silence. It would have been a perfect time for us to make up, to be good again. He chickened out staring through the window the whole time.

We had to stop Mid afternoon, there was a 20 foot crack going for as far as we could se. We knew that there was no way around so we had to figure out a way to get over.

Kane built a small fire and attempted to cook some beans. That man was never ment for the out doors.

"What if we built a bridge? Yeah we would have to leave the van behind but we can always find another." I suggested while everyone was just kicking rocks around pouting.

"That's a great idea clarke! Let's go off in pairs to find materials." Harper said grabbing montys arm. They all paired off.

Harper with monty, Murphy with Emori, Lincoln with Octavia, finn with miller (raven still cant walk very well), it was left with just me and bellamy.

I rolled my eyes at the ground and set off, he was following close behind. Once we got a decent distance between us and the van, I stopped.

He must not have saw that I stopped, he bumped right into me. "Oh sorry why are we stopping?" His voice sounds very distant and sad.

"I want you to apologize and explain yourself. I'm not moving from this spot until you do, go ahead. No excuses." I gave him a warning glare.

He runs his hands through his hair awkwardly.

"Clarke, I dont know how many times I've practiced this in my head. Each time I have to change it because it dosent sound right. Um you deserve the world. You really do. I want you to see that I want you to believe it. But you cant believe it if your settling for Less than what you deserve." He pauses tears welling in his beautiful eyes.

"I'm less then what you deserve. Every little moment that we shared made me want to be better to be everything you deserve. I'm not going to lie to you. I knew what I was doing when I slept with her. I was just so lost and confused and she was there. I know it's wrong for me to put it like that but it's true. I love you clarke. I love you so goddamn much that I'm willing to step back from you if that's what you need. I understand I messed up and I dont deserve your trust. You can let me go. I wont be upset. Actually that's a lie i will be so upset I probably couldn't move. Because clarke I know these are your words but "I live for you." Its the truth I always have because I believe that you are my one true love. Even if I'm not yours you are mine." He stops to take a deep breath his breathing is ragged and short from crying.

"I'm so sorry clarke.. I'm so sorry." He finishes placing his face into his hands.

I grab his wrists pulling them away. I go up on my tip toes to meet his big brown eyes glassed over from tears.

"I love you to you big dope. We wernt together... I forgive you." I say kissing his lips smiling. He hugs me around the waist and swings me around. I wipe his tear stained cheeks that are now contorted with a smile.

He sets me down and kisses me softly. "I love you.." he says in between multiple toe curling kisses.

I pull away giggling. "We need to find stuff for the bridge." I say turning and walking away, a sassy sway in my hips.

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*Bellamy

My princess knows exactly how to do it for me. I push dirty thoughts from my brain. Smiling I chase after her like a love sick puppy.

We looked for about an hour and all we found was a long piece of sheet metal. It was long enough to make it to the other side it was just so flimsy that we cant walk on it.

We made our way back to the group, everyone was already back and there was a pile of materials in front of them.

The girls pulled clarke aside to gossip, most likely about me. They erupted in loud bursts of giggles and then awes and oos. They were definitely talking about me.

The boys pulled me in and patted my back asking if I apologized yet. I nodded to them. My expression made it seem like it wasnt a big deal. I didnt want them to know I cried.

"Common man details. We saw you guys kiss." Miller pushed. I finally gave in.

"So I gave her this whole sappy apology she cried, we kissed.. alot. I told her I love her she told me she loves me.. you get the picture?" I ask after saying my words slowly so these idiots could understand.

"Yeah man good job." Monty says putting a hand on my shoulder. He gives it a warning squeeze.

He dosnt want me to hurt her I get it. None of them do she saved us. Without her we would still be stuck in that office. With out her raven probably would have died.

We all owe clarke our lives. We need to Express how thankful we are.

"Guys clarke saved our lives.. without her we would be stuck in that office. We need to show more gratitude.. I just dont know how." I tell them. They all nod there heads agreeingly.

"First we need to build this bridge." Finn says bending over to sort through the pile.

We get to work, it dosent take long before we have a sturdy enough bridge.

We slowly guide it across the crack. Now all we need is a volunteer to go first. it cant be me because I'm carrying raven.

I look around at the blank faces, everyone's reluctant to volunteer. I watch clarke roll her eyes and push past me to the bridge.

I grab her arm. "You dont have to do this." I say sternly. She yanks it away giving me a pleading look. "Yes I do." She tells me before turning her back o me.

She starts walking slow and hesitant, the bridge was swaying a little with each of her steps. My heart was racing as I fought the disire to run after her and pull her back.

I just stood and watched as she made it to the other side. Everyone wooped with delight that it worked. We also sighed with relief that clarke was ok.

Octavia volunteered next. I didnt fight her on this in fear of her attacking me.

She walked acrossed quicker than clarke had. She was more confident, and joyful.

"Yeah! I made it!" She yelled jumping on clarke. They both fell to the ground laughing.

I had to smile at that, my 2 favorite girls getting along. God I love them.

Next went Lincoln, then miller, Murphy, Emori, Monty, abby, harper, kane, finn, and lastly me with raven.

I tried not to look scared, but flash backs of the last make shift bridge haunted me.

I closed my eyes and stopped for a second taking a few deep breaths. "Are you ok?" Raven asks in a weak voice.

"Yeah I'm fine." I tell her pushing forward. I make it to the other side and hand raven to finn.

I make my way to clarke and scoop her into a hug. "I was scared for you.. because of last time.." she whispers into my neck. "I'm fine." I say squeezing her tighter.

I feel her lips press against my neck, a shiver runs down my spine. I pull away because everyone is now staring.

Monty winks at me with a smile. I put my arm around clarkes shoulders. "So what now?" I ask abby and kane. There faces pale as if they have no idea what to do next.

Right, I needed to decide. Just because there adults they cant make decisions for all of us.

"So we walk." Clarke says with a smile. Her smile dosent reach her eyes. I watch monty pull a paper map from his pocket.

"It should take us 2 days to walk on foot." He says taking harpers hand. "We better get a move on then." Clarke says lifting her eyebrows emphasizing the urgency.

We set off and walk till dark. We make a small fire. We sit telling stories of our childhoods. Abby was embarrassing clarke until her face turned red.

We laid down and quickly fell asleep beneath the stars.