My One True Love: Book 1

30 days before

*Clarke

It's been a week since the fight so most of my cuts have healed. The bruises have turned a nasty green color though.

Bellamy is getting his cast off today. It's all hes talked about the past 2 days.

As for Echo shes been suspended for 2 weeks so I'll be seeing her soon.

Raven and harper came to my hospital room too see me. They just kept repeating that they were going to beat Echos ass but I talked them about of it.

"Ready to go?" I ask a eager bellamy. "Definitely" he says putting his arm over my shoulders. I giggled.

"Fuck I cant wait to itch my wrist." He sighs. This makes me laugh harder.

"Get in the car mister." I tell him playfully. When we get to the clinic I go to get out of the car but bellamy stops me. I look at him

"what..?" I ask him shyly. "Thank you for everything you've done for me this past week-" I cut him off "it was nothing I enjoyed it."

"Will you let me finish?" He asks putting a finger to my lips to silence me. I nod feeling my face heat up.

"I'm so sorry about echo. You dont understand how sorry I am, you didnt deserve this." He said brushing his thumb against a bruise.

"I think it makes me look cool." I tell him quietly. He fake laughs at my comment.

"I'm being serious clarke.." ever since the fight he hasn't called me princess. I cant figure out why.

"I- I'm just going to come right out and say it." He takes a deep breath. "I really really like you clarke. I like it when you have charcoal on your hands from drawing.. I like it when you roll your beautiful blue eyes at me... I like it when you laugh at my stupid jokes that only you would get.. I really like it when I'm the one who makes you smile.. I hate being the one that has caused you this much pain.. i hope you never forgive me for any of it. I dont deserve it." He pauses to take another breath.

"Clarke I really like you." He said sheepishly. God this boy does things to me that I cant explain. I lean over and I kiss him.

"I really like you too bellamy blake." I whisper.

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*Bellamy

I can't believe I just said all of that to her. I cant believe she kissed me. I cant believe that I could be this happy.

We got out of the car and walked awkwardly inside the clinic. When they were done cutting off the cast, I signed some papers and walked back to the lobby so find clarke fiddling with her thumbs thinking intensely.

"Hey you ok?" I ask. She nods, I know Clarke well enough to know that shes lying to me.

"Why are you lying to me clarke?" She snapped her head up to look at me, she looked guilty.

"You know me to well.." she smiled to herself for a minute. "I'm fine bellamy, just thinking." She said sighing.

"Yeah.. whatever you say princ-" I stopped myself remembering how she dosent like it when I call her that.

"Why dont you call me princess anymore bell?" I thought about her question for a moment relishing her calling me bell.

"You dont like it, so I stopped" I told her a little annoyed.

"Sorry but when did I tell you that..?" She asked with a puzzled expression. She dosent rember.

"In the hospital room when you first woke up.. you must not rember." I told her whispering the last part.

"Oh" she said. She looked so small and broken in this moment that I wanted to shake her until she snapped out of it.

I scratched the back of my neck nervously. "Yeah.. um wanna go?" I say gesturing towards the door. She nodded "am I driving or you?" She asked.

I thought about how good it would feel to be back behind the wheel of my car, but decided to let clarke drive.

I needed her to still feel needed. Lord knows how much I need this beautifully stubborn girl.

I cant think of what to say. All that comes out is "I still need you." My face heats up as I realize what I said, I notice that clarkes does too.

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*Clarke

I need this boy more then he knows. I wish I had the courage to tell him. I drove us back to our street in silence we usually talked and told each other stupid jokes or sang loud and off key to music. But after his confession I just didnt know what to say.

I parked on the street outside his house. We just sat there in this stupidly awkward silence.

"Knock knock" bellamy tries. "Who's there?" I continue weakly. "An idiot who wants his princess to give him attention.." this is the first time he has called me princess in 2 weeks.

This time he said "his princess" this time it ment something different. It didnt just mean that I was privileged and spoiled.

I looked over at him. His big brown eyes were sad, lonely. I reached over and grabbed his hand. I put his previously broken knuckles against my lips.

His beautifully freckled face flushed red. "I'm sorry.." I whisperd, "I cant be in a relationship right now.." I tell him quietly.

"Its ok clarke weve got nothing but time." He was the one kissing my hand now, my turn to blush.

"Let me walk you home." He said, the way he said it made it not a question but a statement.

"How can I refuse that offer!" I said with exaggerated enthusiasm. We both laugh.

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*Bellamy

I had to admit clarke not being ready to date yet was a relief. I still had to build back her trust. I want to date someone who fully trusts me, even though I know I dont deserve her trust I'm still going to try and earn it.

I wanted to kiss her goodnight but I had to settle with a hug, not that those were bad I love clarkes hugs.

Everytime we hug I rember the first time. She just passed her science final when she came running down the hall straight towards me.

She basically tackled me, I was so suprised that I almost forgot to hug her back. Octavia was standing next to us and said "that's something I thought I'd never see.." it felt so good to have her in my arms I didnt want to ever let go.

I fell asleep with the image of her smiling fresh on my mind.