Don't ; Lashton

Chapter Fifteen // Reckless

One Year Ago

"Hey fags! I hope you die in hell!"  Ashton sighed, already feeling the tears in his eyes but just cracked a small smile instead, continuing to work on his work next to Calum. Calum looked at Ashton worringly, hoping that they didn't hurt his best friend's feelings. 

"Are you okay bud? I can beat thier asses if you want."  
Calum was hoping Ashton would laugh a little, or at least tell him to to swear.

"I'm better, Cal. I promise."

Just another lie.

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Present Day

"Ashton? Wh-what are you wearing?"

"Clothes babe, don't sound so disappointed. It's only for the day, I can take em' off for you later if you'd like."

Then Ashton fucking winked.

He winked at Calum and it was so flirtatious and Calum knew he shouldn't had left Ashton alone for more than 3 days.

Let alone a month.

But Ashton needed space.

And that's what Calum gave him. 

But what Calum didn't expect, was for him to be a whole different Ashton.

"Get your ass over here right now and take off those dumb sunglasses, you're indoors you douche."

Ashton's smirk seemed to falter a bit but he just nodded, pretending not to care that his best friend might be pissed at him.

But he cared a lot.

Maybe he cared too much about a lot of things and thats why his emotions and mind were all messed up.

But he had to stop caring now to protect himself. It only made sense right?

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"What the hell are you doing."

"Living? What does it look like Calum?"

"But this isn't the real you Ash-"

"Did you ever stop to think that I wasn't actually happy Calum? That I was just faking it to make everyone else happy? Maybe this is the real me. The 'me' I could never be because I had to make everyone else happy."

Never did Calum actually think that Ashton wasn't truely happy. He knew he was sad from time to time but he thought Ashton was better. Better than how he was when he would call Calum crying or when he'd have visible cuts on his arms and stomach. Aahton was always smiling and laughing and Calum knew his eyes weren't as bright as they should be but all he could think about was how pretty Ashton's eyes were.

But apparently not everything is as it seems.

"I thought-"

"That's the problem Calum! You thought. You thought I was happy and care-free but did you actuallly take the time to ask me?! You knew how bad I was but after you thought it was all better, you didn't even ask anymore! Maybe this is who I really am."

"You're doing this to get Luke back." 

"No I'm not Calum I thought you knew me."

"Apparently I don't"

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I'M REALLY MAD AT WATTPAD BC IT KEEPS MESSING MY STUFF UP LIKE I ALREADY PUBLISHED THIS CHAPTER BUT IT GOT CUT OFF WTF WATTPAD.

So this is probably most likely not what I had the first time but I can't remember it and i should just start writing my chapters on word and upload them here.

Anywho how are you? I hope you had a good day or night or week or year.

And I have a new lashton book that i'm collaborating on with @CXNTRAST and its on her profile so it'd be rad if you checked it out.

MICHAEL LOST HIS PASSPORT WHAT A DOPE.

-Ausha