Love Letters

Letter to the dead

Letter to the dead

I get into my room and change out of my damp clothes. I grab forty bucks out of one of my other crossbody bags and return them to Andrew's wallet. I open up my journal and write my thoughts out.

Today was a terrible day without you Amanda, I wish you were still with me. I didn't want us to end like that. I want to tell you that I got my first kiss but I ran off. A rainy cab ride, after I just ran away from kissing a guy? Why is my life a movie? I don't want it to be a movie though; I've lost too much these days and I want to go back to the beginning where everything was normal. I want the ending to be a happy ending but we can't go back now... It's not easy without you. I've had a long day and I wanted to tell you that I know you are reading this from where you are... so I wanted to let you know that I forgive you from the bottom of my heart but that's not going to change anything now that you are gone... Amanda, my dearest friend, and my sister that I never had. Rest in peace.

I stand up and walk to my bed, I want to dream and get away from this world. I'm sick and tired of everything. Let me getaway... for once.

I wake up to someone knocking on my door, knock knock and it goes... I jump out of my bed and walk over to the door. "Go away, I want to sleep," I say.

"Emma uh it's me, Andrew," The voice says from the other side of the door as I'm trying to walk back to bed. I back up back to the door, fix my hair and turn around and open the door.

"Sorry, I thought it was someone else," I start.

"Ha, that's fine, I came back to return your phone and your bag and don't worry you won't be seeing me around," Andrew says as he hands me my things.

"Why won't I be seeing you around?"

"Because you don't want to see me after what happened," he says as he leans on the frame of the doorway.

"That's not what─" I say as he interrupts me.

"Emma it's fine, you don't have to explain anything, I understand that─"

I interrupt him, my lips on his swiftly and delicately.

I pull away as my eyes open into his and he smiles.

"Wow," he barely says.

"I ran away because I've never kissed anyone before and─"

"Wait so I'm your first kiss?" He asks with a smirk.

"I know it's embarrassing, I've never kissed anyone," I frown sarcastically.

He laughs, "I'm glad I am your first." I laugh as well.

"How could you do this to me?" A voice comes from down the hallway of our dorm floor. I turn and of course, it's Sammy. "I saw everything; I saw you kissing him," he says with a look of hatred in his eyes. "You never let me kiss you."

"Things are different now! How many times do I have to tell you that I don't want you! For god sake, you ruined everything! You are the reason we aren't the same anymore! You cheated on me! Amanda's dead! And I... I love Andrew now!" I yell as Andrew looks at me.

"Andrew? That's the guy you left me for?"

"I never left you, you left me!"

"He will never love you as I did!" Sammy yells.

"But I fell in love with him in a few days and it's better than our 6-year relationship!"

"What the hell happened to you," he mumbles and walks away, down the hall furiously.

Andrew and I go inside my room, "Do you really mean what you said to Sammy?"

"Yes, I meant everything I said," I start. "I've known you for less than a week now and you cared about me more than Sammy did in two years," I smile at Andrew as I place my hand on his face. He has a pretty grin on his face and then hugs me; tighter than Sammy did. I can feel the warmth of his body heat as he's hugging me tighter, and his lips are on mine once again.