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𝑳𝒆𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝑶𝒖𝒕 𝑨𝒍𝒍 𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝑹𝒆𝒔𝒕 - 🥀

Levi x Reader

The field filled with ashes and a fog covered the open land. I heard a familiar voice calling my name, walking towards her I realised the devastation of the scene. Piles of bodies emerged from the ground up and I heard distant gun fire, it was a scene I'd come to know to frequently. Unsure of how I got here or what had happened my feet continued to follow the braying of my name. It felt like I walked forever, with each step I grew more panicked, wondering wether I'd ever reach her.

Out of the smoke the fog cleared enough for me to see her wondering frame, her (h/c) hair was dulled and blood soaked her clothes and face. "(F/n)!" I cried out, my voice appeared more choked then I anticipated. My partner continued to called out but her own voice grew more rasped, all the smoke filled her lungs and she started to cough between cries. I called out again to her but she seemed to not recognise me, it frightened me when her attention was suddenly brought towards myself. Only then did I notice the wounds on her face and her palms that dripped with blood. I looked into (f/n) fearful eyes but she only stared past me, no it was more like she looked through me. "(F/n)!" I heard another voice call out to her behind me, that must have been what caught her attention. It seems that I was blind to people. Hange yelled to my lover, it was then did I realise my whole group was there. (F/n) started to run up to them, straight past me. "Has anyone seen Levi?" She questioned desperately at the others, the group lowered there head shamefully. I was completely astounded by the situation, how could no one see that I was right here. "We can't wait for him, we have to move out" Hange demanded as the squad followed her direction, "No I'm not leaving, not without him! We need to find his body. I can't leave him here I want to take him home" (f/n) argued and screamed out, her voice was shaken with fear. Everyone was leaving her behind but I was caught off by her words, my 'body?' What did she mean? It came to me that I was how some say invisible to everyone. Was I dead? Was I looking over my friends and family from the grave?

(F/n) collapsed to the floor as the blood from her palms poured out, her eyes cried a fountain of tears and her face grew red. "I'm sorry (f/n), but we have to leave" Hange said before turning to go with the rest of the squad. As they left my partners side she cried louder and harder then ever before, my heart broke looking upon her messed up state. Through the tears she started to run out of breath, no one was comforting her and no one was helping her breathe. I started to choke up at the sight of her but I was to afraid to approach, all I could do was watch. Looking away I hoped she'd stop, suddenly I heard more whining then crying. Turning back to my partner I saw her cradling a body, my stomach started to sink. My feet started to move as I had a stroke of morbid curiosity. (F/n) was holding my body which seemed to appear out of nowhere, I couldn't see my face but the knowing that it was me was enough to shock me to my core. The last thing I remember was hearing (f/n) whispering to me, wishing me back to life.

I suddenly jolted awake from the bed, tearing the sheets off of me as I jumped out of my place. Due to my uneasy state I fell to the floor, when I closed my eyes horrid flash back to the dream flushed into mind. My stomach churned and I could feel the sick in my throat, I retched into my hand from my feared state. "Levi!" I heard yell from the other side of the bed, I was on my hands and knees vomiting. (F/n) rushed to my aid in her sleep filled state. Once a huffing mess on the floor (f/n) patted my back, "it's alright, come on let's get you cleaned up" her voice was soft and nursing while I clasped for her hand. She lifted me and helped me to the bathroom down the hall, my woozy frame rocked side to side as my head felt light. Armin came out of his room and peaked a head round, "it's everything alright?" He question through the door frame as (f/n) guided me into the bathroom. Inwardly I cursed myself for letting the kid see me this way but (f/n) covered for me, "oh yes, we just spilt something over each other" she smiled lightly at the boy. Armin soon took the bait and returned to his room, my partner turned to me as I washed my shaking hands under the tap. Chucking water on my face I tried to clean away the memories of the dream, I huffed shallow breaths because I was still panicking. I felt a comforting hand on my back as (f/n) rubbed it, "do you feel better?" She whispered to me, I nodded in return.

We stood in silence as I cleaned myself up, I looked over to (f/n) and my heart clenched. I could only see her crying face, is that really what she'd do if I died? Is that how everyone would act? Am I even leaving something or will I just die on the battle field? My head was so full of questions and I zoned out staring at (f/n), she seemed to try and read my emotions or thoughts. "I'll go get you some water, you stay here" my lover stated concerned, she left me alone in a room which was the last thing I wanted, but I couldn't find the power to call back for her. My mind swam through existential thoughts, one stuck out in all prominence. What am I leaving when I die? Will I just leave (f/n) broken and alone? Will my body be left like dead weight? Will all my wrong doings be what's left of me? My heart clenched again and I felt hot tears well up. I finished brushing my teeth and washing up, soon I stumbled out of the room. I waited in the hall and heard foot steps coming back up the stairs, (f/n) took my hand and lead me back to our room.

(F/n) sat me up in the bed and gave me the water to sip, she cleaned up my vomit from the floor and with in a couple of minutes she joined me beside the bed. She held my hand and rubbed her thumb over it, "What was that about? Was it something in the dinner?" (F/n) questioned innocently. "No" I mumbled bluntly, she squeezed my hand and asked if it was a bad dream. "Yeah...I'm just, confused" my mind was now blank from racing and I didn't really no how to feel. "Confused? What happened?" (F/n) words were more worried then before, I pinched my nose closing my eyes and thinking back to the dream. "I just wonder what I'm leaving once I'm gone" my words seemed calm but fed up, (f/n) shuffled into the bed and sat up beside me once again. "That's a very deep thought for the middle of the night" she sighed thinking over what to say to me, I wondered how she'd react. "I hope that I make a difference, that I'll be remembered in the masses of those who died for our victory. That I was loved by those around me and my sacrifice meant something" (f/n) smiled at our intertwined hands and then lifted her eyes delicately to mine, I could feel my face flush red because she was so intimidatingly beautiful. I felt special in her words, knowing that she'd be happy as long as I loved her till she passes, perhaps I should feel the same. It's not that I didn't it's just I wouldn't let myself think that was enough. "Don't you want a family?" I shyly mumbled shamefully, she giggled at my statement which confused me. Looking at (f/n) she just shook her head, "no point looking into an unclear future, I think right now is enough. As long I live with love and no regrets I can rest happily." She was right, the future was as clear as the fog in my dream, there was no point worrying over a chance in a million. Even if (f/n) lived on I hope my memory will live within her. "Your not worried about all the bad stuff you did? What if it comes back to haunt you from the grave?" I asked, (f/n) just looked blankly over to me. "No, but it seems that's what your worried about" she spoke bluntly, damn was I that see through? I scoffed aloud, "I just want everyone to leave out all the bad stuff and remember me for all the good I did, I just hope I've done enough of it" my voice mumbled more seriously. My partner wrapped her arm around my shoulder and brought me in closer, "of course, I'll only ever remember our best times because that's all I want to remember" (f/n) voice was angelic in my ears, I smile to myself wondering what I ever did to deserve her.

After that (f/n) cradled me as I told her my dream, she would leave little kisses on my head when I'd get too emotional. "Don't worry about that, it's just a simple nightmare that a child would have. I understand that you're very stressed and I'm sure your mind just wanted to freak you out" (f/n) simply stated, I knew she could empathise with me so her putting it into perspective really helped. We laid back in to the bed and she allowed me to spread across her, my head was on her chest and I could hear her heart beat. I loved it when she'd play with my hair between her fingers, it was like a tick that helped her think clearly. I lifted my head from her chest and she looked up to me, she smiled at me but I was busy memorising her features. My partners hand pulled back my hair from my face as she too studied my face. I laid flat on her chest and I started to kiss up to her neck, my lover continued to play with my hair enjoying my affection. Our lips met and I melted into it, her soft lips fit perfectly with mine. She giggled into the connection which made me smile. I pulled away and looked down to my partner, a 'I love you' escaped her lips which made my heart light up, I whispered my confession back. Rolling over to my side I awaited loving arms, (f/n) wanted to be the big spoon and I was feeling vulnerable. She curled her soft hand around my waist and snuggled her head to my nape, leaving a kiss on it I managed to reside in a peaceful nights sleep.