Of Gods and Memories (LokixFemaleReader) [COMPLETED]

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Heads up spoiler alert! I'm putting smut in this because I feel like it. If you think you can handle it, be my guest, but for those who don't want to read it I'll put a warning and make sure there aren't any plot details in there, it's some fun for those who want it. Umm... I'm kinda a kinky bitch so it's got some stuff with bondage, but it's ok if that's not your thing, it's just my personal preference! Anyways have fun. 

"Fuck!" I shout, my eyes snapping open. I sit up, cursing again as the sudden movement sends a burst of pain through my body. So it isn't a new thing, this attraction to a psychotic god who seems to have decided to hang around with me, it's been that way for two years. I just didn't remember. And I guess I was pretty loyal to him at one point if I decided to accept blame and punishment for crimes we both committed. 

I get up slowly, steadying myself on the wall and going into the main area of the motel room, pushing my sweaty hair off my forehead. I should probably do something about this, something that isn't bashing Loki up.

"Hey," I say awkwardly, perching on the side of the couch opposite him.

"How's your head?" he asks, and I get the feeling he hasn't done much other than just sit here while I was out.

"Fine," I mutter, "you?"

"Fine." He falls silent, but speaks up again after a few moments. "You said that you'd tell me what was going on after we bashed each other up," he says, "and you don't..."

"I don't go back on promises," I sigh, "I know."

"Then tell me, (Y/N)," he shuffles closer to me, "what is it? What happened to you?"

"I remember it," I whisper, a lump of emotion making it hard to get the words out, "I remember it all." To my horror, I feel tears leaking from my eyes. I desperately try to hold them back, turning my face down and away so Loki can't see me crying.

"I'm sorry," he says softly, taking one of my hands in his, "I'm sorry for everything."

"I'm the one who pushed you off the Bifrost," I laugh bitterly, "but I guess I got what was coming, huh?"

"What do you mean?"

"Banishment on counts of treason, murder, and plotting against Asgard."

"The plotting part was all me," he smiles, "and I don't remember you ever murdering anyone."

"You, dumbass. And I kind of figured that you'd be the one behind the whole thing with the frost giants."

"I can see why you're angry," he says, "I am too."

"Thor gave a testimony against me," I mutter.

"Of course he did."

"But I pushed you off the fucking rainbow bridge!"

"You also told me you loved me," he says softly, "and you kissed me."

"I know, I'm sorry..."

"It's ok."

I look up to meet his eyes, sniffling slightly and rubbing my face with a hand. He smiles sadly, resting a hand on my cheek.

"I just wish I'd been able to say it back," he murmurs.

"What?"

"I love you, (Y/N)."