I walked home in silence thinking about every time I spent with Jason. Tears filled my eyes and I couldn't hold them back. I was pretty sure my makeup was everywhere. I didn't care. Why did I have to go in to the stupid woods! I should of know not to go there at night even if I was drunk! I JUST WANT TO BE WITH JASON! Tears came down like a heavy rain. In a way it felt good to let everything out.
I came threw the door of my house. I was still crying like crazy. I had to clear my mind and all I wanted to do was be with Jason... and I knew how. I had always thought of doing this but never have I actually attempted. I ran over the kitchen drawer and pulled a knife out. This was the only way to be with him... right? I held the knife to my neck and I wanted to just do it but something held me back! I needed to do it but at the same time I couldn't!
The knife dropped to the ground along with my whole body. I was crying nonstop and my heart was in pain. Why couldn't I just do it? I wanted to be with Jason so bad I almost attempted it... but... I couldn't, why? What was holding me back! I couldn't think of anything! I....I...I don't know what to do!
I walked to my room barley making each step. My head hurt and I was a wreck. My stomach was dying of hunger and I didn't care. I was ready fro bed but I couldn't sleep? I was to upset and hurt to even dream. My dreams would be of him anyway. It was only 5:23 as well. My mom would know something was up if I went to bed so early. I knew what I wanted to do...
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RomanceEllie loves Jason so much but he died over 2 months ago, she blames herself for everything that happened as well. All she wants to do is be with him and she can't stop thinking about how she killed him. Then she meets a store clurk named Drake. They...
