Moving On

Chapter 12 "Confessions"

It was just me and him. Sitting side by side in the movies. We were watching one of my favorites, Ghost Rider. He had his arm around me and his head rest on his side. We both stared at the gigantic screen. At that moment  we both looked at each other and leaned for a kiss. It was magical and my skin felt like it was on fire. I leaned in and whispered "I love you Drake"...

I woke up to an alarm blasting There For You By Flyleaf. I keep hearing this dam song! I opened my eyes and saw Drake's hand hit the alarm clock and it ended the song. He looked over and smiled at me and got up. HE WAS SHIRTLESS! I hated to admit it but he is really sexy! He looked over and I quickly turned away before our eyes met but I knew he saw me look. I looked over as soon as a felt his gaze off me.

Drake: Um... I'm going to take a shower and feel free to wear what ever you find in my closet if you don't feel like changing in to your clothes from last night I guess.

I didn't take my eyes off of him till he left the room. I quickly got up and looked in his closet. What was I doing? All of his clothing was way to big for me anyway. Fuck it, I would just wear my clothes. I started to undress quickly and put on my clothes fast. I dug in my pocket for my black eyeliner and pulled it out. I walked over to his mirror and put it on dark and heavy. I looked ok I guess. My clothes were kinda grass and mud stained but not enough to really notice. I took hold of a brush a found on his dresser and went threw my black hair fast. It had that look that I really could careless how I looked. The door opened and in came Drake with a towel on his waist. I just stared but he just had a awkward smile on his face. He went over closet and just graved a random shirt and some skinny jeans. He took a belt that was on the floor and some black worn converse. He walked out of the room still with a smile lit on his face.

I walked downstairs to see a man cooking eggs on the stove. He was very tall and looked nothing like Drake. The man turned and smiled. Drake came down at that moment with his beat up book bag.

Drake: Oh, this is my brother, John. John this is Ellie.

I nodded my head slowly and there was sort of an awkward silence. In a way I felt like Drake didn't want me to see his brother?

John: Nice to meet you Ellie.

Drake: Well we have to get to school so yea bye.

Drake pushed me rudely out the door along with him. He slammed the door and gestured me to start walking with him.

Me: Ummm... is there something wrong?

Drake: No... I just really try to avoid my brother.

Me: Well you live with him?

Drake: Yea can we not talk about this?

Me: Sure.

We walked in silence for about 5 minutes. I think he was mad at me for asking.

Drake: Who's Jason?

I stopped at that moment. How the hell did he find out! I swear I didn't say shit.

Me: What? W...why do you ask?

Drake: Well you talk in your sleep.

Me: Wait what, I do not!

Drake: You do and you kept saying Jason... so who is he?

Me: I don't want to talk about this.

Tears fell down from my face and I started walking again bu faster. He put his hand on my shoulder and stopped me.

Drake: I'm sorry Ellie. I didn't mean-

I cut him off.

Me: Its ok. I just... well its not something I like remember I guess. It's really a long story...

Drake: Well, were not going to be at school for at least 30 more minutes so if you want to talk then just talk.

It fell silent for atleast 5 minutes, then I broke it.

Me: Jason was my boyfriend. I killed him...

He stopped dead in his tracks and stared at me like what the hell? It was the freak stare.

Me: 2 months ago I came back drunk from a party. I lead him to those woods by your house. We ran around being stupid. I really can't remember what happened fully but he ended up dead and I broke half the bones in my body.

It fell silent but I guess he felt relief because he started walking again.

Drake: Then why did you say that you killed him?

Me: Because I'm the one who led him to the woods and he wouldn't have died if I didn't lead him to the woods.

Drake: You didn't know?

Me: But I should of known!

I yelled back and he stopped, we both did. Tears fell like heavy rain and my face was surely a mess. He came over and we both hugged. I just completely lost it and cried nonstop. He was holding me.

Drake: Its ok, Ellie... I blamed myself for my parents death...

I looked up at him and he was crying too. I never really had seen a boy cry to tell the truth.

Drake: My dad had the wheel and my mom had shotgun. I was in the back in my car seat. We were driving back from my aunts and...

He stopped and tears still fell down his and mines face.

Drake: I kept yelling and singing like a brat and my dad could barley keep his eyes on the road because he had them on me. Then when he turned around to tell me to be quiet for the last time... the car went in the other lane and we crashed. My mom and dad didn't survive but I did...

He wasn't crying anymore but I could tell he was still sad. I hugged him and we stayed that way for a couple of minutes.

Me: You were so little and you really didn't know any better.

Drake: I know but I still should of just shut up.

We started walking again and I guess that subject closed. The silence was horrible but in a way I felt better. I never liked talking about my problems to really anyone but Drake wasn't really just anyone.

Drake: You know... you talked about some other stuff in your sleep as well.

I gave him a smile and he gave one back.

Me: Like what?

Drake: You... you said you love me?

I stopped dead in my tracks and just looked at him. I was shocked and didn't have a clue but to say next...