Neko: My Kitten

15- I just wish I could see me, me

"Felix... your eye..."

Chan was in disbelief when he looked Felix in the eyes. Both were brown, his blue eye was gone.

"Channie! I got so much stuff today! Wanna see?" He meowed.

Chan stood frozen for a few seconds, just staring at Felix's eyes. He placed his hands on the younger's cheeks as he stared intently.

"Channie? What's wrong ?" Felix asked in confusion.

"Felix.... kitten... what did you do?" He barely whispered out.

"What do you mean?"

"Felix your eye... what did you do to your eye?" He asked with worry and a hint of sadness.

"Oh! I fixed it Channie! See, I can be normal now!" He moved his hand up to his forehead to hold his bangs back to give the older a closer look.

Chan wasn't sure if he should feel sad, heartbroken, or disappointed.

"Felix..." was all he said before pulling away. He walked passed the younger to place his keys and wallet on the counter. He slowly turned around with sadness across his face.

"Channie... what's wrong?" Felix asked quietly as he nervously played with the hem of his skirt.

"Felix, tell me what did you exactly do to your eye" he asked sternly as he crossed his arms.

Felix wasn't sure why the older was acting strange, he thought he would be happy for him.

"I- I found this site... they sell color contacts... so I ordered some..."

"Felix, why would you do that?" Chan slightly raised his voice which startled the younger.

"I-I wanted to be normal... like everyone else..." he quietly said.

Chan let out as frustrated sigh as he shook his head, looking away.

Felix inched closer to the older.

"Y-you don't like it...?" He nervously asked.

Chan uncrossed his arms, putting one on his hip.

"No Felix, I don't" He said with an angry yet hurt tone directing his attention back to the younger.

"Why would you think I would?" He slightly yelled.

Felix was scared, he's never seen Chan angry at him like this before.

"Channie I-"

"Do you know how that makes me feel?" He said with that same upset and hurt tone.

Felix started to tear up at Chan raising his voice at him.

"Chan-"

"It makes me feel like you don't love yourself, like I've told you that you should. After all we've been through together. And on top of that, it makes me feel like you don't want to be anything like me. It makes me feel like how those other hybrids and people treated you. Different.... like I'm the defective one..." he finally finished with a sigh.

Felix didn't realize changing what he wanted for himself would hurt the older this much. He was sniffling and wiping a few tears away before trying to speak up again.

"Channie.... I didn't mean to-"

"I'm going to shower, I had a long day" he sighed out still upset. Felix tried to reach for him, but the older just went into the bedroom, slamming the door.

Felix's heart felt like it shattered.

He slowly walked over to the couch, sitting on it as he pulled his knees to his chest. Letting all his tears finally fall.