Heath Ledgers Joker X Reader / Clown Princess

Thirty-One...

(READERS POV)

Your heart was in shatters. Just as you'd begin to think that you could fall in love and stay with him, he'd proved you wrong. You felt betrayed more than anything. How could he do that to you?

You were living at your apartment. You didn't want to go outside. You couldn't bare the thought of people seeing you. You felt lime everyone would judge you. You weren't good enough, not even for a psychopathic clown.

You couldn't stop drinking, again. You didn't feel anymore. Everything felt like it was moving around you, but you were stuck in slow motion. There was nothing you wanted to do, nothing to motivate you. You tried to draw but wouldn't stop thinking of his face, so you scribbled roughly in black ink and burnt the paper.

You couldn't turn the tv on, Incase you saw his face. You couldn't listen to the radio incase it spoke of him. You couldn't look out the window incase you saw him outside. You wished he'd never existed. You wished that you'd never went to Harvey Denys fund raiser. All this would've never happened. Harvey wouldn't be "two-face", and you wouldn't have had your heart ripped out.

It had been two months now, and you hadn't eaten a proper meal since the day you'd walked out on him. You'd lost two stone, and looked like skin and bone. He'd never find you attractive now... now that he did anyway. If he did, he never would've cheated on you, with... Harley Quinn. Why did he lie to you before? Telling you that batman had killed her? He was still in love with her.

Saying those words in your mind made you wince in pain. Then it turned to anger. You wanted to kill her. He said that he already did... but how should you know if he's lying or not? He's lied about so many things, for instance... telling you that he loved you.

You thought about it for the next month. You wanted to have revenge on him. You remembered something that he'd always said... "my only weakness is you". You wanted to hit him where it hurt. You wanted to kill Harley...

You gathered a load of weapons (when you say weapons, you mean a knife and some rope... common stuff... you weren't exactly batman) and made a plan. You needed to break into Arkham Asylum in order to find doctor Harleen Quinzel. Then you were going to kidnap her, along with someone that you want to make an ally... and old friend. Harvey Dent.

You and him would take her to an abandoned place, somewhere far, far away from the joker and tell him all the things you're going to do to her. You and Harvey will make the joker pay.

You were fed up of being defenceless, and your hurt was turning into anger. You knew that you were going temporarily insane, but you didn't care. This slip into insanity was like a rollercoaster ride, and you didn't want to get off.

The joker always underestimated you, telling you not to go outside by yourself. To be fair, you did get kidnapped by Harvey, but that was because of his problems with Harvey. You weren't some poor defenceless woman. Not caring about anything made you strong. You didn't have a man holding you back anymore.

You were going to show him what this woman can do... and get revenge on him and his little Harlequinn...