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Is it still the same? I don't know. I've put in a lot of efforts to make sure it isn't, but never succeeded. Hell, even Justin and his songs couldn't work their magic. But...
Why is he here?
Why now?
But...how? Just-how?
You know how when...
👇Writer'sNote👇: If you are not into description and want to jump straight into the incidents, then I suggest to start from "Wait, WHAT?!" And there might be some cringe-worthy statements but I promise, I'll start editing as soon as I get time.
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1-800-273-8255 byLogic/AlessiaCara/Khalid
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Have you ever wondered how quickly and suddenly your life can change? Even by the snap of a finger? No, I'm not referring to Thanos, which by the way, actually would've been really cool because I'd get to meet the avengers in reality.
But that's not the point here. We're talking about how likely it is for your pattern of life to change and turn a hundred and eighty degrees around if all you feel and think is that life's been throwing you all the worst consequences of the most painful and heartbreaking situations.
There are people who feel like they can't deal with their present anymore and attempt to take extreme actions to change it, fix it, find a way to make it better. And in the course of discovering those "ways", a lot of people choose self-harm, isolation, hostility and attempting suicide even.
And I did too.
And it wasn't the right decision. It gave me nothing but more and more pain and I ended up destroying my relationship with my family. I reacted too easily because of my impulsive nature and believe me, if you have parents like mine, it is hard, really, really hard to keep a check on your nerves. Specially when you can't control all those excessive secretion of pubic hormones. And in my case, my hormones started kicking in even before I knew what on earth women wear bras for. I had no idea how to deal with those worked up emotions and foreign feelings and I chose to do the wrong things.
Fortunately, for those who have patience, and just a touch of a wise and mature subconscious, things may even take a turn for the better. But "better" here doesn't necessarily mean getting a high-ranking job, being the next top model in your country or wandering around the space with hopes of discovering all ninety-five percent of the unknown matter.
Did I dream of that "better"? Yes. Yes, I did.
And I was wrong.
Those are not all the things that matter. Even though I had major psychological problems from an early age, I learned to conceal it, hoping that someday, just by hiding my interior, I'd learn to control it. And be like those normal teenagers.
