Illusion • Hemmings

Luke

"I don't even know if she came back last night." I explain to the guys the events that took place last night.

"That explains her acting so lifeless all the time." Ashton concludes.

"We have to get her help." Michael adds. Well duh.

"But how? She ran out last night, and if I mention anything to her she'll just ignore me." I groan wondering how I didn't catch this sooner.

"Then ask her out for a date. Act like you're just avoiding he subject and when she seems in a better mood try and convince her into getting help and we'll help." Calum speaks up after looking like he was too lost to even understand what was going on. That how i felt to be honest. How could Jennie of all people get on drugs?

And the way she acted when I was going to trash them, she obviously already addicted and that's going to make this a thousand times harder.

"You think it'll work?" I raise an eyebrow.

"It's worth a shot." Ashton shrugs and i decided might as well go ask her now.

The guys wish me luck as I leave their room and go to hers praying she at least came back last night. I knock on her door and wait a moment when I get nothing I know again and hear her call that she's coming. God I hope she doesn't have a guy in the room or something.

The door opens and shows a stumbling Jennie. It's fucking noon. How could she already be on the pills? "Oh, look about last night-" she tries but I cut her off.

"Do you want to go out tonight? We haven't been on a date in ages let alone had some time to ourselves." She looks surprised.

"Are you kidding?" She asks trying to see if I'll take back my offer. "I mean.. Sure I guess."

I smile, "great, I promo today with the guys but I'll come back and pick you up tonight." I kiss her forehead and give her a hug.

I walked back to the guys room and I told them that she accepted, we had to actually do promo that day but I prayed that everything will go right and she'll agree to get help. I didn't want to lose her and at the rate she was going she's just getting closer and closer to a permanent outcome.

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"If you need anything call us alright?" Ashton reminds me again as I grab my phone and room key nodding and taking a deep breath.

"God, I hope everything goes right." I sigh then say a bye to the guys going to get Jennie from her room.

I knock on the door and she opens up right away looking amazing. I can tell she's not actually high on drugs but sober and dressed in a black dress that hugged every curve on her body that I loved.

"Hi." I smile breathless from how beautiful she looks.

"Hi." She blushes as my eyes take over her body for the tenth time.

"Uh a-are you ready to go?" I ask shaking the thoughts of what I want to do to her out of my head.

"Yeah." She nods closing the door behind her and fixing the strap to her bag on her shoulder.

I take her hand leading her down to the lobby in silence, we agreed to go get something to eat then maybe make an appearance at a club.

Dinner went better than I expected and every chance I had to bring up what happened last night I chickened out. I was having too much fun with her. I know this date was an actual plan to try and get her to agree to getting help but the last time I had a good time with her like this was too long ago. Right now she was laughing at a lame joke I made and the sound made my heart swell with love for her. The sound was lovely to hear and I realize I haven't heard it a lot often. That bugs me more than it really should. I should've noticed that Jennie was turning to drugs rather than talking to me about her dads death. I know this is about him because when I brought it up shed shut me out or change the subject. I wish she would've came to me instead.

We finished dinner and began walking the streets of New York and I found myself reminiscing of the time I was here with Jennie in high school. I smiled to myself, that was the night I made her mine. Everything was great. Everything was right. I told her I loved her and she loved me too. I could never forget how I felt in that moment. No one could take that happiness from me.

I wish I could make Jennie as happy as she made me that night. "Do you remember coming here with the school?" I question still looking around he lit up city.

"It was a crazy time." She nods at the memory. "You sang to me in time square." She laughed.

"Yeah i did." I was insanely proud of that moment to be honest.

"I still don't know how you pulled that off." She giggled taking my arm in her arms to lean into my side.

"And I'll never tell. It'll make it seem less romantic."

"Doubtful." She disagrees while we walk in silence and I know we're nearing closer to a club and Jennie would want to go in.

Once we were close enough i was right as Jennie gave me puppy dog eyes to go in "just for a few drinks". After a few drinks and a trip to bathroom Jennie is falling all over herself and I know I missed my chance to bring this up to her sober.

"Jennie, are you okay?" I ask as stumbles through the crowd.

"Yes, now dance with me." she asks and begins grinding her body against me. And let me tell you, she knows exactly what she's doing.

"Jennie." I groan trying to still her movements.

"Daaaaaance." She whines but I won't budge.

"Jennie I brought you out tonight because I wanted to talk to you." I try to calm her movement although the loud music was drowning out my voice.

"No talking." She shook her head and span around almost falling to the floor and that was my cue to get her water and take her home. After i basically promise Jennie sex to get her to drink the damn water she's a bit more sober and I call a car to pick us up. In the car she's leaning her head on her shoulder and i take the calm moment as a chance to try and bring up the subject of talking again.

"Jennie, I know you're struggling with some stuff right now.. And i think you should get some help." I say slowly.

"I don't want help luke." She rolls her eyes taking her head off of her shoulder.

"I know but the guys and i-"

"The guys?" She snaps with wide eyes.

"Yeah, I told the guys how you've been taking those pills and-"

"What the fuck?! Luke that wasn't your place to tell anyone!" She yells now seeming a lot less drunk than before.

"They're worried about you, Jennie. I'm worried about you." I try and reason but she ignores me as the car comes to a stop in front of our hotel.

"Well don't fucking worry. I'm fine and I know what I'm doing." She growls throwing the car door open and storming into the hotel. I follow behind her quickly.

I knew she'd act like this, I wait until we're in the elevator to speak again so she has to listen.

"Jennie just think about it, you'd be so much better off without having to depend on some pills to feel better." I take her hand but she pulls out of my grip. Well that hurt.

"Luke you don't know anything about anyone ever being taken away from you so just stop acting like you get this." She snaps through her teeth as the elevator door opens and now I feel angry at the brunette.

I have actually lost someone. I'm losing her. Over and over I lose her and it fucking kills me because I'm the only one trying anymore to keep whatever we have alive. It's just an instinct to fight for Jennie now, I don't even see why I continue. But here I am following her into her hotel room trying to talk some sense into her.

Little did I know this was going to go very badly in so little time.

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A/n:
Next chapter may be triggering. Comment and let me know if you guys are keeping up bc IM not sure if this all makes sense.