What lies behind a smile

6

                            Peter
                      two days later
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I was being pushed out of the hospital to Tony's car, I had anxiety just looking at it. Because the last time I was in a car the person I loved most died, the doctors say she died on impact but could they know? How do they know it didn't hurt, she could have felt everything and died.

"Okay thank you so much doc."

"No problem he should come back in a week for a check-up."Tony nods and Natasha shuts the door but I can still hear.

"Have you talked to him about the self-harm?"I watch as Tony shakes his head. Oh shit. no, no-no-no.

"I'm gonna do it tomorrow I didn't want to make him more upset."

"Okay, and Mr.Stark I would strongly suggest enrolling him into a mental hospital program, he will be there for the day and participate in getting the help he needs but he doesn't have to sleep there depending on the program you choose."She hands him a few cards. I stare out as Tony looks down at the card. If my ribs weren't still broken I might have out the car.

"Thank you I might do that."I bite my lip and him and Natasha get into the car. Neither of them says a thing, I don't know why but this makes me mad. After i while I break the silence.

"So where am I gonna go?"Tony's eyes widen a bit.
"What do you mean?"

"Like with CPS, I'm gonna be going into the system right?"Even my voice sounds tired, and not the kinda tired sleep could fix.
"No bud, I'm gonna try and keep you out of there but right now your with me." Temporarily.

"Okay," I say quietly. My ribs are barely starting to heal since I've been eating. Though they still hurt, I don't know how Tony plans on lying to the doctors in a week about my healing. If I'm still alive in a week.

The car stops and I get out Tony doesn't let me grab my bags and I follow them to the elevator. Tony's eyes are studying me and I can see the sadness in those eyes. He thought I was this happy kid and he now knows I'm not that's it's a lie that that's how I present myself.

The door opens and I follow Tony out when my senses spike and something falls on me. I grab the person using my strength to pin them down. Clint Barton, Tony pulls me off and I groan in pain. My arm wraps around my ribs which now have that stabbing pain in them.
I think I re-broke them.

"CLINT!"Nat yells

"What the hell is wrong with you?"Tony says my eyes heat up and I then realize he was talking to Clint not me.

I can't breathe. inhaling hurts too much.

"Peter you okay."I put a thumbs up and my arm still wrapped around my ribs. I look to Natasha who scowls at Mr.Barton.

"I thought that was Nat"

"I told you the kid was coming today!"
"I thought you meant tomorrow," Clint says getting up I look around and see Captain America's and Bruce Banner sitting on the couch.

"I'm sorry," I say quietly I didn't mean to slam him like that but I didn't even know what the hell was happening.
"You're fine Peter the idiot shouldn't have done that in the first place. I'm gonna show him his room someone helps this moron." Tony steps over Clint who's groaning on the floor. I get up slowly.

"Peter, what's wrong?"

"My ribs, I'm fine just give me a minute," I say trying to catch my breath and then follow Tony he leads me into a big room and puts my stuff my a bed. The room is nice a guest bedroom by how neutral and neat everything is.

"You have a bathroom there, extra blankets in that chest and there's the tv remote." I nod "Sorry about him he's stupid." I smile in an attempt of brushing it off.

"Do you want to go meet everyone or wait a minute?"

"Can I have a minute I'm tired..."

"Yeah that's fine Pete, let me know when your ready I'll check on you in a bit."I nod and when he closes the door I sit on the bed.

I would be on my way home right now if it were a normal day. May would have already been home and we would go get Tai food at our favorite restaurant. I would be teasing her about that one guy hitting on her. I pull out my phone and start scrolling through my camera roll smiling at pictures and videos. I didn't even notice I was crying.

"PETER BENJAMIN PARKER! That's inappropriate!"May yells Bens laughing in the video.

"MILF where did you even learn that?"Ben is practically rolling in the video.

"May, Megan Fox is a MILF you cant change my mind- AGHH"May jumped at me and I got up running.
"I'M SORRY AGHHH BEN! UNCLE BEN HELP!" I screamed laughing.
"How is this any different from you calling Brad Pitt hot?"

"Peter get your butt over here." she chases me around the counter and the video stops I'm laughing and crying by the end of it.
We never watched transformers without them teasing me about it.
I skip to a different video.

"AGHHH PETER GRAB THE FIRE EXTINGUISHER," May screamed in panic as her cooking went up in flames. I turn off my phone and sit up.

That familiar feeling set in me, I felt numb but felt everything at the same time. I knew I was crying but it didn't hurt but it did, it hurt to the point where it was numb. I grabbed my backpack pulling out my suit digging into the pocket when my fingers touched cold metal.
I pulled out the blade it was small, funny how such a small thing seem to solve my problems. I walked to the bathroom pulling up my sleeve then the thought hit me.

I can rest now.

I stopped turning around and grabbing a pencil and paper I wrote three letters. One to Tony, one to Ned and Mj, and the public. I placed my pencil down walking to the window and looked out to the city one last time. The lights of New York shined and I felt happy seeing it one last time. I walk to the bathroom and slid down.
The pain was gonna finally stop.

I walked into the bathroom, my mind was racing l felt
scared but at ease if that was a thing.

Taking the blade I  dug it into my wrist and dragged.
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Date- 1-3-22
Word count- 1144

Happy New Year! I hope everyone has been safe and that you enjoyed this chapter.