What lies behind a smile

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Peter POV
    Today's been alright, it's my 6th day here.  Miles and Gwen have been nice, Adrian is getting along the best. He's cool he uses humor as a way to cope which lighted things up we also relate to the dead mom/aunt.

I'm more comfortable now that I've heard other people talk. I've yet to share much with the group. I only talk a lot during individual counseling (mainly because it's not an option) but here I don't know it feels different. I am pretty shy in general so that may be it.
"Peter, would you like to share? What's something you would do differently if you could go back."

"a different way of suicide."Adrian mumbles. I bite my lip to stifle a laugh but when we look at each other I can't help it.

"What so funny? Adrian how about you share that with the whole group?" I can't help but laugh even harder, his laugh is even funnier than the joke.

"NO!"He practically yells. "I'm so sorry!"I add trying to contain my laughter. Gwen stares with a confused look, Miles looks lost.

"No no tell us all this joke if it's so funny," she says a scowl on her face.

"He said um..." Adrian lets out a teapot wheeze and I throw myself back but my chair gives out sending me to the floor. I laugh till it physically hurts.

"Peter! Your chair."Miles says as I'm on the floor. well no shit.

"I said I wouldn't forget to feed my fish," Adrian says, adding something Peter I tell myself.

"Yeah because it um A-Adrian forgot to feed it, "I say getting up and sitting back on my chair.

"For like 2 weeks"

"And it died, it was really hard on Adrian," Gwen said holding back a laugh

"Rest in peace Fredrick. Peter why the hell are you laughing? You think Frederick's death is funny?"

"no-no of course not!"I put my hand over my mouth and look up to Kelly who has a tired look on her face.

"Can you all please pull it together?"

"PETER IS LAUGHING AT MY DEAD FUSH!"

"Fush? Fish you idiot."

"And now he's making fun of my dyslexia!"

"NO!"

"Adrian is just a dumbass!"Gwen says.

"Hey! All of you need to calm down! Or should I call your parents?"

"what parents?"I mumble under my breath.

"For me, it's a parent- what the fuck Peter!."Adrian says. I shrug laughing a little at his reaction, I didn't mean for him to hear.  "Oh if you do call my dad tell him if he could send me some more conditioner that would be great."

"Oh god forbid Adrian runs out of conditioner!"

"Bro if your just jealous of these lushes locks just say it." I laugh "okay okay I'm so sorry guys getting it together! What was the question?" I say getting serious.

My face hurts.

"If you could go back in time and do something different what would you change?"She says sounding a little fed up. You would think she would be happy to see us laughing and smiling. Although I and Adrain made a scene the other day while watching Bambi. The whole showing of a movie about a deer whose mom dies was a little bit upsetting. They changed the movie and we got to watch cars instead.

"Um, "My brain goes straight to May and Ben. I wouldn't have entered their lives even if I didn't have a choice. "I wouldn't have run away. That or I would have just ignored Flash."