What lies behind a smile

5

Peter POV
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"Okay, so when can we take him to the tower?" I open my eyes taking a deep breath but stop when I feel that sharp pain on my side, your ribs are broken. "Hey Pete take it easy," Tony says. I look to Nat who's stuck on my good side because of how I'm hugging her.
"Sorry" I mumble but I'm not very sure why I apologize.

"What time is it?"I ask.

"Nine o'clock bud, I'll go order you some food you should probably eat."I shake my head.

"N-no I'm not hungry," I say.
I don't deserve food not after what I've done, it's my fault.
Tony sighs.

"Peter you have to eat if you don't eat you won't heal."I'm surprised by how quickly I get frustrated, now I just wanna scream. I wanna scream until my voice gives out and my lungs beg me to stop. I wanna scream till I die.

"I said I'm not hungry."I want to hurt I need that reminder that this is real. And I deserve pain.

"Can you just eat some fruit?"Natasha asks gently. I shake my head. "I'm not hungry" Tony sighs but doesn't press any farther. I take in a short breath, breathing is kinda difficult with a broken rib. It feels like I'm being stabbed and I'm sore from crying.

Natasha turns on the TV flipping through the channels but hospital television kinda sucks ass. She stops at the cooking channel and 'chopped' is on. My uncle Ben loved this show, we watched it most Thursday nights while May worked her night shift but I haven't watched it much since Ben was murdered.

A part of me is happy May and Ben are back together but that thought also haunts me. I killed both of them and now I have no one left. I have no more family and maybe that's a good thing because I seem to kill everything I touch. Might as well end it. May was the last thing keeping me here because I couldn't do that to her and instead of killing myself, I killed her.

"What's gonna happen to me?"I ask looking at Tony. I can see the pity in his face, unwanted pity.

"So I talked to your social worker and she said you can stay with me for a bit." That's shocking. Why would Tony want me to stay with him?

"So I'm not going into the system?"
Tony doesn't say anything "Or is this temporary?"

"We will worry about that bridge later k."I nod. Well, at least I don't have to go into foster care. I look back up and Tony is staring at me weirdly with a facial expression I can't read. Natasha shakes her head but I already pick up on it. What are they hiding?

"What?"

"Nothing. It's not a good time to mention it." Natasha blurts out

"Mention what?"

"I'll talk to you about it later bud." I nod and look back to the tv. But instead, my mind flips through memories of May, I can't even bring myself to cry anymore. Not after all the crying, I did earlier. Sleep creeps up on me and I let myself fall back asleep.

<The next morning>

Light shined into the room landing right on my face, I groaned begging for five more minutes of sleep. Usually, when I sleep I have nightmares but right now they aren't there torturing me. I hear the door click open footsteps following.
I accept I'm not gonna get more sleep, at least right now. So I open my eyes to a nurse standing at the foot of my bed. Well, that's not scary.