The Bet (SF9 DaBin) ~ Book 1

28 ✔️

!!!I know I messed up the timeline of it all (I think? I'm not sure anymore) but I already wrote this chapter and it's so cute. If I messed up just think of it as a Bonus chapter, if not then it's a regular chapter!!! Also important Question at the end of the chapter!!

Sanghyuk felt uneasy when he woke up the next morning, Youngbin cuddled up tightly in his embrace while sleeping. It wasn't because of his breakdown but more the cause of it, he hated to see him completely worked up and sad but he couldn't help him yet. He didn't know what caused it so he didn't know if he should just ask him or wait for the older to tell him. He was conflicted and it got worse the longer he thought about it, resulting in him staying awake almost the whole night. He knew that it was something awful that must have happened, something he didn't want to talk about or relive it but Sanghyuk just needed to know sooner or later, for now he thought he wouldn't pressure him and just act like nothing happened at all. Carefully he cuddled a bit closer to the older male in his arms, taking in his warmth as he closed his eyes to sleep a bit more. He was about to finally fall asleep when his alarm suddenly rang, waking them both up. It took Youngbin a few moments to fully wake up and realize how close he actually was to Sanghyuk, making him blush a little.
"Good morning" the younger mumbled, rubbing his eyes as his other hand was still holding onto him tightly.
"Good morning" he replied, feeling his stomach churn a little when he noticed the younger looking directly at him.
"Is something wrong?"
"No but you look so pretty, even in the morning or while crying"Sanghyuk mumbled, not realizing that he spoke his thoughts out loud.
"Please don't mock me" Youngbin replied quietly, remembering how Hajoon always used to mock him whenever he could.

"Are you still not ready Youngbin-ah? What's taking you so long. We're already too late" Hajoon called through the small apartment, eyes glued to his phone as he heard the squeaking of the bathroom door being opened.
"You won't look better no matter what you do to make yourself look prettier" he muttered under his breath, not realizing that the younger was already standing in the same room.
"I'm sorry for making you wait" he replied in a hushed voice, trying to suppress the upcoming hurt from the previous comment.
"Let's go then. We've already wasted too much time already."
"I wanted to make a good first impression" Youngbin replied while following the older, almost running into him as he abruptly stopped in his tracks.
"Why does it matter, huh? You're with me so it doesn't matter what impression you'll make. Besides my friends only like pretty things."
"I understand" the younger muttered while walking past Hajoon, not even feeling in the mood to go out anymore.

"I would never mock you. I really mean it" Sanghyuk replied, his body acting completely on it's own as he gently run his hand over the older's cheek.
"Sanghyuk" he mumbled, not exactly knowing what to say or do.
"Don't worry. I don't know why you were so panicked this night but I promise you that I won't hurt you. I don't have any experiences how relationships work but I want to try my best for you. I want to change myself for you and make you happy no matter what. You don't need to tell me what happened but I'll always be here for you and take care of you" Sanghyuk blurted out, surprised by his sudden confession.
"You could never love somebody like me" the older sighed, feeling his heart clench as he just said what the small voice in his head told him.
"Don't say something like that. Why would you say such things?"
"Because it's true. I should have listened to my father."
"Whatever it was, your father wasn't right."
"He was, he warned me before and I ignored him and now this is what I became. I'm not worth of being loved" the older mumbled, feeling all of the feelings from the past years come to life again.
"Youngbin don't ever think of yourself like that. No matter what happened, forget about it. You're living in the present, here with me and there are so many good things about you. You deserve everything and I'll give you all that I'm capable of, I promise you" Sanghyuk whispered while sitting up, taking the older's hands into his while looking into his eyes. Sanghyuk never felt like that, it was unfamiliar to him but when he saw the way Youngbin looked at him, all of the emotions playing in his eyes he knew that this was what he wanted. He didn't need a different one night stand every night, he didn't need any girl to relive his desires, he only needed Youngbin being with him and allowing him to love him and being loved. He wanted to learn, to make mistakes and apologize afterwards. He wanted to finally feel how it would be to have someone to talk, to trust and to experience everything with. He never was so desperately trying to get someone to stay with him, he never felt the need to make someone stay but Youngbin showed him a completely different world. He knew it wouldn't be easy, that they both experienced quite some things already but he wanted to them to try their hardest and make it work. Sanghyuk wanted to finally be committed, to be a good boyfriend and make his partner happy no matter what. He wanted to protect Youngbin and make sure he would never be sad, but for that he needed the older to see himself in the way he saw him. Not perfect but incredibly close to it.

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So we're already at Chapter 28 and this story is not even close to it's end. I'm kinda scared that it'll be too much so should I stop this story after a few more chapters and make a second book or should I continue and risk that there'll be maybe over 60, 70 Chapters? I really don't know

I had one idea but I don't know if it's a good one. I thought of maybe writing 3 to 4 books, the first one Dabin, the second Rochan, and third Hwitae. Maybe a fourth book about Jaeseong? But I'm not sure since Jaeseong will always have a few chapters in every book. I'd love to hear about your thoughts. >.<