The Bet (SF9 DaBin) ~ Book 1

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"Youngbin I know that it's not easy but even now after you told me everything my feelings for you haven't changed. I really like you and I still want to be your boyfriend."
"This wasn't everything Sanghyuk-ah" he sighed, trying to shift away as more tears welled up in his eyes.
"Then tell me the rest if you feel comfortable about it."
"So after he did that, he realized what he had done. I passed out a few minutes after that, only waking up the next morning still feeling dizzy. I saw the mess, how much blood I have lost. I got scared by it and thought about going to the hospital but I wasn't ready to tell them what had happened. Hajoon was as usual, he drove me home after I begged him. I thought about telling Youngkyun or my mother but I feared that something would happen to Hajoon, I still thought I loved him. After that we met up for a few times and he always forced me into it before he dumped me, telling me I wasn't good enough anymore. He told me I was only good enough for having sex but I disappointed him and I was boring. I accepted it and went back home. I felt so devastated that I needed someone to talk, but Youngkyun was still so young. I told my mother but my father stormed in, hearing what I told her. He was furious, he abandoned me and left us. It was my fault that my father left us, I was too weak as he said. I wasn't strong enough to protect me from him, I was only a mere disappointment. I hurt everyone in the family, my parents and Youngkyun. He was always there for me during those times and I sometimes feel like he suffers even more than me. I ruined their lives, not being the son they wanted. I always looked up to my father, always wanting to be like him. Whenever he went out with me I was so happy, I wanted to be a father just like him until I realized how different I was."
"Stop saying such things" Sanghyuk whispered, gently wiping away his tears.
"I don't know your father but he couldn't have been that great if he left you while you were suffering. You trusted your parents and your father disappointed you. He should have been there for you, after all you're his son."
"I still blame myself for all of it. If I would have been stronger I could have stopped Hajoon from hurting me like that."
"That's nonsense. You are so much stronger than I could ever be. The things you've already went through make you the strongest person I know. Even if it sounds stupid but I would be honored to be the one being by your side and watching you become even stronger."
"I don't understand you Sanghyuk. How can you still want me after all of this? I don't deserve your love" Youngbin sighed, gasping when he felt the younger lift up his chin.
"You do deserve everything. Getting raped isn't something to be ashamed of, the person doing it should be ashamed of hurting someone physically and mentally. I fell in love with you and yes even after you told me all of this I still feel the same. Inseong hyung has talked about Soulmates so many times and I never thought something like that existed but then I met you" Sanghyuk smiled, leaning in a bit closer.
"What do you mean?"
"I think that you're my soulmate, that's why I fell so quickly and easily for you. It's the only logical explanation since I never was in love before. You're everything I need in my life."
"You t-think I am your soulmate?" Youngbin stuttered in shock, not sire if he heard it right.
"Yes I think that you, Kim Youngbin, am my soulmate" Sanghyuk replied with such a sweet smile it made Youngbin almost cry. He could hear his heart beating, the blood rushing through his ears before he leaned in to kiss the younger, showing him how much love he felt for him.
"So that was a 'Yes I also think you're my soulmate'?" the younger asked, blushing a bit.
"Yes it definitely was" Youngbin chuckled before kissing him again.

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The next chapter will be the last one already. It's crazy how fats this story came to an end 🤭